Just got the news.
Well, I gotta say, it honestly breaks my heart to do this. It isn't my dad's fault, it isn't anyone's fault, but...
Just found out about 5 minutes ago that I'm not going to Switzerland. The platelet count in my dad's blood is too low.
So that entire trip that's kept me going for the past month, kept my spirits up and helped me stay happy... Gone.
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Just found out about 5 minutes ago that I'm not going to Switzerland. The platelet count in my dad's blood is too low.
So that entire trip that's kept me going for the past month, kept my spirits up and helped me stay happy... Gone.
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OMG, NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~!!!! I... I don't know what to say! I mean... damn, I am SO bummed that things will not work out according to plan! Awww man, I was looking forward to meeting you so much! Crap...
I honestly don't know what to write, I don't know what to think. Just... I really would have loved to meet you! And keep in mind that whenever you'd come to Switzerland, I'd be more than happy to meet up with you :)
(Btw, you shouldn't tell her this, but if your Mom really has known that you wouldn't be going for a couple of days now, I think it's extremely uncool of her for not telling you the truth right away. I think I know how you feel - I'm guessing I felt the same when Mom revealed how much of an egoist she thinks Dima is after he had gone back to Russia, while I had always been under the impression that others had gotten along with him quite well. I'm still at mad, and her entire act that she had put up during his stay seems like quite the farce to me now. However, she got offended when I told her that... :/)
So yeah... I'm very sorry too, dear! But I hope your Dad can get the best treatment possible in America. And remember, maybe we'll meet in real life some other time!
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Me too. I'm completely depressed now. Of course, I'd go meet you in a heartbeat. <3 I feel so determined to meet up with my online friends now more than ever.
I actually asked her about it, and she told me that she had received the call from the hospital in Switz this morning. It's quite relieving to me that this is fairly recent news, but still - the news hurts. :|
I hope so too... I don't even know what's going to happen now. I'm so freaked out... I hope we will meet one day, I really do - the fact that I can't meet you now breaks my heart....
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Me tooooooooooooooo~! There goes my lovely plan for April 3rd... :((( Now I won't have an excuse to be postponing my assignments (even if it would only have been for a while)... Jk, the worst thing about this is definitely that I won't be able to meet you!
Me too! I checked out this Question Meme Generator on deviantArt, and it asked me stuff like "Super fun fun amusement park marathon with you, (Friend X) and (Friend Y)! How will it go?", and whenever it would suggest Internet peeps of mine, I'd get tremendously excited - because I just KNOW that no matter what we'd do, we'd have a blast! x3
Whew! Yeah, that is a relief, but like you said, the news remains sad news... *sniff*
You know what? I'm sure we will. Maybe here, or maybe in America (hey, I might go back someday for either vacation or actually living there) - maybe if I'm in neigborhood, I could pay you a visit??? 8D
I'm trying not to let this get to me so much; I've been freaking out so much during the past two weeks, it's not healthy. Like, on Thursday, after talking with my Mom, I had a severe crying fit right before dinner. I was howling and sobbing and everything. And my bro came home from work to find me crying at the dinner table, unable to eat anything (for a long time) :/ However, I have a feeling that after gaining a slightly new perspective after talking with a colleague at work today, I might have a plan now. In other words: I think I have decided what I'll do about Dima. His answers to my questions (which I'll hopefully receive) will either confirm or refute my decision...
Be strong, my friend! At least we know each other at all and could count on these blessed forms of modern communication like emails, blogs etc - it's better than nothing, eh?
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We would have fun - it would definitely be something I'd remember for a long time!! :D
Quite sad, indeed... T___T
Alright, we definitely will. :))) Of COURSE you could pay a visit!! I would love it if you did!! :D Awww, I'm sorry you were totally stressed out again... :/ Ahh, you have? Well, I'm sure it'll be for the best. :) If you don't mind me asking, what do you plan on doing?
Thank you, and the same to you! <3 I agree completely - it is DEFINITELY better than nothing!!
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Hell yeah! We'd be all over the place, probably nearly terrorizing it with fangirlish outbursts of happiness due to finally being able to do something together! x3
YAY! Like I said, I have no idea when I'll go back to the States, but I will someday :) Meh, don't be. I'm too dramatic, this has to stop. I've decided to use a different strategy not only for my relationship, but for life in general: I'm reading a book* in which it says that the world reacts to the way we are, as in we see the world like our current emotions make us see it. The whole thing is phrased differently than everything I've read so far, I really like it - and therefore, I want to try to be more positive. Maybe then I'll be happier, healthier (although I already rarely get sick) and in general more pleasant to be around. Also, then I might not react so impulsively when I feel bummed for some reason or encounter a problem... (in short: running mostly to Mom first and telling her about it)
I think I should stop confiding in my Mom so much. I know she means the best for me, but especially with Dima, she's made everything so hard for me to bear. Always hearing her putting him down like that... it plants a seed of mistrust in my heart, and it's hard to a) live with that, and b) to get rid of it. It's not like I haven't had ANY doubts whatsoever about Dima - it would be weird if I wouldn't, I suppose - but constantly having doubts cannot provide a good basis for a relationship. So my strategy is thus:
I will mostly confide in my electronic diary and perhaps some LJ entries from now on. Plus, I might ask about the psychological service the school offers (for free, apparently). I know others will not forget the things I have told them, and for a while they certainly won't forget how sad and confused I was during these past few weeks, but if my strategy works, I'll be much happier, and then no one could place the main part of the blame on Dima.
I will keep him blocked on Skype until he sends me a written answer to a couple of important questions I hadn't thought about yet (they got pointed out courtesy of Mom). Afterwards, I might unblock him again - if he's basically willing to start over again. I want to try that, thought while we certainly wouldn't be able to forget everything we've had so far, I want to start anew on the basis of our happy memories and emotions, on trust instead of bitterness - and I would still insist on better communication. Maybe more emails at the cost of less Skyping, and perhaps it would be for the best if we'd Skype earlier in the evening and not quite so long anymore (that way, Dima's sister will still be able to sleep in her own room). I'll suggest that to him as soon as I hear from again. I think that would be the wisest course of action. And all this would be spiced with me finally putting a stop to being such a worrywart and accept the fact that getting access to (cheap) means of communication is not as easy and natural for him as it is for me. If I stop worrying about that, maybe I'll be able to focus on schoolwork instead, which will distract me from waiting for his next message... ;) Whatcha think?
^_________^ Even though I haven't met you in person yet and won't in the very near future, I'm still so happy to have made your acquaintance and that we are friends! God bless LJ for enabling us to stay in contact in such a wonderful, easy way! :)))
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Here goes:
I'm Reading A Book - Julian Smith
Julian Smith... making reading books badass business XDDD
(I'll see the result as soon as I click submit, but I sure hope the link will get displayed properly!)
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