its always harder on holidays
seems like i've been thinking about my dad a lot around the holidays. it doesn't help his bday falls on thanksgiving once every seven years. man its like i try to bust my butt and try to make moves but when i start thinking about him and my mother it just makes me depressed and back track. i should be living my life to the best but it just seems i'm being held down like its a burden that i had to deal with this and am still going through it?! that makes me sound bad like my parents are a problem. well they kinda are..they are in the way of breaking out my potential in my opinion. i dont' know its just when i think about him and her i get depressed and not move forward. i feel sorry for myself and stuff like that. i need to escape