i wish i could sleep...
i'm almost twenty one years old and i'm still afraid to be alone...not alone without a relationship alone...going to sleep by myself in an empty house alone...its like i expect someone to be here waiting to do horrible things to me when i know i'm going to be alone...chet and anita couldn't sleep over because chet's parents wanted him home...dorean is at her other friends house...
ibar tonight was both good and bad...they got a little too techno-y
for a little bit...but they played i want your sex so that made it better...
someone please come sleep over...lol...
tomorrow i'm off to tallahassee to see rob and shannon and the french kicks...
i've basically been working a lot...dorean and i hung out with zach a few nights ago, which was pretty funny...dorean freaked out to ninety-four hours, which was pretty freakin hilarious...i bought her a ticket to the show in april. watch out you hardcore kids, she's gonna kick your asses...and i'm gonna hide in the corner and laugh...then we watched part of the dave chapelle dvd while the rest of them smoked pot...god that stuff is disgusting...i can handle cigarettes, but that pot stuff was nauseating...
i love chet...he made me feel a lot better about myself the other day...he said 'tanya, if i weren't gay, i would totally hit on you every day and then convince you to marry me'...and i in turn responded, 'chet if i weren't straight and a girl i would do the same'...but yeah, i love that guy. <3
this entry is really random...i'm sorry to those of you that still read my journal occasionally...i should just take some tylenol pm and let myself relax...it'll be nice when someone decides they want to marry me and then i wouldn't have this kind of problem...i have a feeling that that's a far off thing for me...marriage i mean...which is fine...
'you kissed me in a style clark gable would have admired...'
everyone should listen to the postal service...
goodnight. <3
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ibar tonight was both good and bad...they got a little too techno-y
for a little bit...but they played i want your sex so that made it better...
someone please come sleep over...lol...
tomorrow i'm off to tallahassee to see rob and shannon and the french kicks...
i've basically been working a lot...dorean and i hung out with zach a few nights ago, which was pretty funny...dorean freaked out to ninety-four hours, which was pretty freakin hilarious...i bought her a ticket to the show in april. watch out you hardcore kids, she's gonna kick your asses...and i'm gonna hide in the corner and laugh...then we watched part of the dave chapelle dvd while the rest of them smoked pot...god that stuff is disgusting...i can handle cigarettes, but that pot stuff was nauseating...
i love chet...he made me feel a lot better about myself the other day...he said 'tanya, if i weren't gay, i would totally hit on you every day and then convince you to marry me'...and i in turn responded, 'chet if i weren't straight and a girl i would do the same'...but yeah, i love that guy. <3
this entry is really random...i'm sorry to those of you that still read my journal occasionally...i should just take some tylenol pm and let myself relax...it'll be nice when someone decides they want to marry me and then i wouldn't have this kind of problem...i have a feeling that that's a far off thing for me...marriage i mean...which is fine...
'you kissed me in a style clark gable would have admired...'
everyone should listen to the postal service...
goodnight. <3
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