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I have so many things flying around in my mind at the moment, I need to just get it out and see if it makes me feel better.
Dad can't walk anymore so I am his carer during the day (in between working shifts like all day everyday) but Im not complaining. It's just hard to see a loved one loose the use of their limbs, be totally helpless, need everything doing for them when they usually do everything for you.
Work is going really well but theres just the small problem of me having a major thing for one of the bar staff. were really good friends but I want more. I would go for it but he has a fiance and a kiddie, sucks! but he is a really good mate and he helps me chill out when I get angry and upset. We go for a drive together after most shifts, chill out and have a schmoke.
My social life is a total disaster, it doesn't exist. If im not working at the pub or looking after dad, im sat in the pub chatting to my work mates, keeping them company. its fun, but I just wish I had more tiem to go out properly, see everybody, get wasted and have the next day to recover. unfortunately I cant as I work all weekend. Everyone says 'think of the money' and I say 'but with no social life, I don't need money' lol, twisted circle of working full time.
enough of the monaing now, I need to take the dogs for a walk and then go to work. fun friday night! atleast we have a hen party in the pub tonight, with a stripper! I shall not be doing much work tonight whilst he is around!
Dad can't walk anymore so I am his carer during the day (in between working shifts like all day everyday) but Im not complaining. It's just hard to see a loved one loose the use of their limbs, be totally helpless, need everything doing for them when they usually do everything for you.
Work is going really well but theres just the small problem of me having a major thing for one of the bar staff. were really good friends but I want more. I would go for it but he has a fiance and a kiddie, sucks! but he is a really good mate and he helps me chill out when I get angry and upset. We go for a drive together after most shifts, chill out and have a schmoke.
My social life is a total disaster, it doesn't exist. If im not working at the pub or looking after dad, im sat in the pub chatting to my work mates, keeping them company. its fun, but I just wish I had more tiem to go out properly, see everybody, get wasted and have the next day to recover. unfortunately I cant as I work all weekend. Everyone says 'think of the money' and I say 'but with no social life, I don't need money' lol, twisted circle of working full time.
enough of the monaing now, I need to take the dogs for a walk and then go to work. fun friday night! atleast we have a hen party in the pub tonight, with a stripper! I shall not be doing much work tonight whilst he is around!