Yes. I am a Derby Girl.
After a million long meetings and various plague/plague like things (perhaps allergies) this month, I have to put my foot down. My energy has run so low lately and I can't let that stop me from my goals in my personal life. I've been missing practice after practice and it has to stop. I have to keep going. I came home tonight and didn't go to an important derby meeting for the bout because I was trapped in yet another meeting and I've been feeling like hell. I just have to take better care of myself and manage my time more, is really what it boils down to. I still feel like crud as I write this. (Hell, I almost hurled a couple times tonight...which you really didn't need to know.) I've been sleeping too much lately which has been affecting my regular sleep schedule. One evening I fell asleep at 4:30 and woke up at 7:30 and thought I'd just slept through the night and started to get ready for work - until I realized it was nighttime.
I think it's my inactivity, and I'm starting to really see its effect. Tonight really just kind of nailed it for me. I can't let myself lose to time management and I honestly think that if I start up again I'll start feeling healthier and my immune system will kickstart itself again. I need to start up again. I'm a derby girl. The last few weeks I've been really upset about failing an assessment three times, which adds to me not wanting to go to practice due to the anxiety of failing again. It's not like me to stop trying. Even when I was in high school and I got a difficult part to a song, I kept practicing. I walked around with four mallets in my hands at home and practiced stability so that I could perfect a song for a solo performance that led me to the regionals.
Starting now, I'm going to get it together. I joined this sport because it has a lot of what I love. Passion, drive, challenges, goals. It's another song that I need to learn the difficult parts to. I can't let a four measure sixteenth note run get in my way. I have to push through it, even if it means that I might get hurt in the process. I let myself go for a little while and I lost sight of what this is really about. Me. I'm doing this for me. Because this sport has made me a better person all around. It's strengthened me at my job, it's make me a more confident person, and a healthier person at that. i've also made some new friends that make me feel like I actually belong here, because a lot of the time I don't. I can't pack it in. I won't. Tomorrow is a new dawn and a new day. Tomorrow I will work on my core muscles at yoga. I will go home, sleep, and go to spinning class. I will study scrimmage. I will work on my footwork at my job, and I will do more squats at home. I will wear my skates like Bruiser does. All day, every day, every chance at least. I am a derby girl at heart. I can't lose sight of that. If you see me, ask me how my skating is going. Ask me if I've done 100 squats today. for now, I'm going to get that good nights rest that I really need. Hopefully my konking out earlier doesn't mess with that schedule. I'm a derby girl and I'm tough.
~Shirley Manslaughter, Charm City Roller Girl
I think it's my inactivity, and I'm starting to really see its effect. Tonight really just kind of nailed it for me. I can't let myself lose to time management and I honestly think that if I start up again I'll start feeling healthier and my immune system will kickstart itself again. I need to start up again. I'm a derby girl. The last few weeks I've been really upset about failing an assessment three times, which adds to me not wanting to go to practice due to the anxiety of failing again. It's not like me to stop trying. Even when I was in high school and I got a difficult part to a song, I kept practicing. I walked around with four mallets in my hands at home and practiced stability so that I could perfect a song for a solo performance that led me to the regionals.
Starting now, I'm going to get it together. I joined this sport because it has a lot of what I love. Passion, drive, challenges, goals. It's another song that I need to learn the difficult parts to. I can't let a four measure sixteenth note run get in my way. I have to push through it, even if it means that I might get hurt in the process. I let myself go for a little while and I lost sight of what this is really about. Me. I'm doing this for me. Because this sport has made me a better person all around. It's strengthened me at my job, it's make me a more confident person, and a healthier person at that. i've also made some new friends that make me feel like I actually belong here, because a lot of the time I don't. I can't pack it in. I won't. Tomorrow is a new dawn and a new day. Tomorrow I will work on my core muscles at yoga. I will go home, sleep, and go to spinning class. I will study scrimmage. I will work on my footwork at my job, and I will do more squats at home. I will wear my skates like Bruiser does. All day, every day, every chance at least. I am a derby girl at heart. I can't lose sight of that. If you see me, ask me how my skating is going. Ask me if I've done 100 squats today. for now, I'm going to get that good nights rest that I really need. Hopefully my konking out earlier doesn't mess with that schedule. I'm a derby girl and I'm tough.
~Shirley Manslaughter, Charm City Roller Girl