Life
Tonight I made the mix tape from "the perks of being a wallflower." I made it for a friend.
I also had to do something very difficult tonight. I hate being mysterious about it, but I have to. All I can say is that I feel really relieved, but upset. Bittersweet. Listening to Blackbird by the Beatles makes me much happier, though. I really do think that this is one of the best songs written.
Moving on, though, I'm really happy being on the Charm City Roller Girls. I'm finding a niche, and realize that it's going to take a lot for me to move through the ranks which I'm completely happy with. Working towards goals is great for me overall. As hard as I've been working, I'm going to try to move it up a notch. I want to take better care of myself, bring myself to a peak of physical fitness that I've never been at before. It's going to be really hard and I'm going to curse and get upset but more importantly I'm going to be pushing myself towards something amazing so all of that will seem small and trivial in the end. I love myself but I don't love the state my body is in.
In the same respect, I'm also going to try to push myself to be more of the intellectual I know that I can be. I feel like I've dumbed down a bit and I can't accept that. I'm better than that.
When the world turns you around, you have to fight against the wind and push the world right back.
It seems like I inadvertently made a list of resolutions. Well...huh. Look at that. Go subconscious, go!
Much love to all of you. I hope all is well in your world.
me
I also had to do something very difficult tonight. I hate being mysterious about it, but I have to. All I can say is that I feel really relieved, but upset. Bittersweet. Listening to Blackbird by the Beatles makes me much happier, though. I really do think that this is one of the best songs written.
Moving on, though, I'm really happy being on the Charm City Roller Girls. I'm finding a niche, and realize that it's going to take a lot for me to move through the ranks which I'm completely happy with. Working towards goals is great for me overall. As hard as I've been working, I'm going to try to move it up a notch. I want to take better care of myself, bring myself to a peak of physical fitness that I've never been at before. It's going to be really hard and I'm going to curse and get upset but more importantly I'm going to be pushing myself towards something amazing so all of that will seem small and trivial in the end. I love myself but I don't love the state my body is in.
In the same respect, I'm also going to try to push myself to be more of the intellectual I know that I can be. I feel like I've dumbed down a bit and I can't accept that. I'm better than that.
When the world turns you around, you have to fight against the wind and push the world right back.
It seems like I inadvertently made a list of resolutions. Well...huh. Look at that. Go subconscious, go!
Much love to all of you. I hope all is well in your world.
me