Years Later
*tap tap* Is this thing on? Does this still work? ... A LiveJournal, for me, and it's still going... surprise, surprise.
Well, I just had a read through some old, old entries. I haven't touched this thing in years. I'm starting to see the benefit in writing your thoughts down while they're fresh... because I can never remember so clearly later. The parties I had? How school went? The friends I made? The people I hung out with? The girls I met? What I was thinking? It's almost like reading news, only, it's news that is strangely familiar, and from the past. Eerie.
Mostly I've realized how much I've grown. I see my words, and I see intentions behind writing them... I knew who read these posts. Now, no one does, so, does it matter what I write? Only to me. God, what an immature, confused, cocky and unbalanced youth I was. I guess I'm still somewhat cocky when it comes to things like guitar. Heh :) But at least I can admit that now...
I guess the purpose in reading my own old posts is to avoid repeating old mistakes, and fixing my inadequacies.
Flash forward to the present. Star Log: the year is... no wait, DAMMIT. Let me start over. This is not Star Trek (I don't even like Star Trek.. have never watched it... hey, I wonder if I can fool myself into thinking something completely made up years in the future, when I look back at this..?)
Ok getting back on track... I think that was an example of my newly discovered ADD. Yes, it appears that I've had attention deficit my whole life... though the official appointment for recognition and possibly treatment is not for a few weeks yet. My disorder most definitely includes the impulsive side.... me, impulsive? ME?? Well... I think that explains a lot. The trouble I've gotten myself into... relationship drama... school problems... financial problems.... yup, they all date back to one singular moment of impulsiveness. That moment when I knew I shouldn't... but said fuck it, and let my mind be blank to consequences and acted anyway. Yes, that is definitely familiar.
I should start recording my life on here again... something to look back on later. But I think I've written enough for now. I will continue another day..........
..... if I don't have an ADD attack and forget.
Well, I just had a read through some old, old entries. I haven't touched this thing in years. I'm starting to see the benefit in writing your thoughts down while they're fresh... because I can never remember so clearly later. The parties I had? How school went? The friends I made? The people I hung out with? The girls I met? What I was thinking? It's almost like reading news, only, it's news that is strangely familiar, and from the past. Eerie.
Mostly I've realized how much I've grown. I see my words, and I see intentions behind writing them... I knew who read these posts. Now, no one does, so, does it matter what I write? Only to me. God, what an immature, confused, cocky and unbalanced youth I was. I guess I'm still somewhat cocky when it comes to things like guitar. Heh :) But at least I can admit that now...
I guess the purpose in reading my own old posts is to avoid repeating old mistakes, and fixing my inadequacies.
Flash forward to the present. Star Log: the year is... no wait, DAMMIT. Let me start over. This is not Star Trek (I don't even like Star Trek.. have never watched it... hey, I wonder if I can fool myself into thinking something completely made up years in the future, when I look back at this..?)
Ok getting back on track... I think that was an example of my newly discovered ADD. Yes, it appears that I've had attention deficit my whole life... though the official appointment for recognition and possibly treatment is not for a few weeks yet. My disorder most definitely includes the impulsive side.... me, impulsive? ME?? Well... I think that explains a lot. The trouble I've gotten myself into... relationship drama... school problems... financial problems.... yup, they all date back to one singular moment of impulsiveness. That moment when I knew I shouldn't... but said fuck it, and let my mind be blank to consequences and acted anyway. Yes, that is definitely familiar.
I should start recording my life on here again... something to look back on later. But I think I've written enough for now. I will continue another day..........
..... if I don't have an ADD attack and forget.