8000 York Road
Well, the best part of my day has been the fucking orange cream ice cream cone I just had...and it wasnt very good at all. I'm just feeling really not good. I'm depressed, I'm lonely, I'm missing Nikki a lot. And right now I'm on the verge of crying. typing all of this out isnt going to be good for holding in tears i guess. Okay. First off I moved. I live on 8000 york road now. yeah, that's towson university. 50 minutes away from the greatest thing that's ever happened to me. i feel like my life reached it's peak just before i left for college and it's all down from here. nikki is starting to find me annoying and the girl down the hall keeps asking me what's wrong. im fucking lonely. i dont really have friends here. i have people i talk to and hang out with...but what do i know about them...? I dont love them. i love nikki and im not with her. and. fuck. tonight i have my first audition with towson theatre. its in like 2 hours. and i dont want to go to it at all. which means im going to do terribly, hence my first impression on the department here will be an everlasting bad one. im going to look like a kid who thought he wanted to do theatre but didnt know any thing about it and sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. my hair looks like shit too. and the shirts i bought dont fit right. the are short. like i like them, but then the sleeves are too long...its retarded, and the neck hole is too wide. i want nikki here. i want to come home this weekend again. i really do. but im not going to. maybe next weekend. then i'll hang in there for 3 weeks till i come home. then maybe 4 weeks.. then 5 then i'll be home for winter break. and i'll see nikki as much as she'll let me for a whole month. and then my life will be better again. but until then, i guess i have an audition to fuck up...
side note: if you are laughing in response to this entry...you shouldnt im not joking/
side note: if you are laughing in response to this entry...you shouldnt im not joking/