The park
Thank you everyone for all the IMs on got on midnight on my birthday. Things like that mean the world to me. I miss you all very very much. I am suffocating in this state... but I soon plan to move out. I will work work work, until I can get this debt paid off, no matter what it takes! All I need is to be around people who care, a place with a welcomed hug ;)
I am thankful for the internet, in being able to keep in contact with most people, and meeting a few, very wonderful, new people.
I have been alone most of the day today, not even my parents were home... It's often that I stay locked up in my room, leaving only to eat and use the bathroom. So this afternoon I went to visit my mother and sister, both of whom are going through too much stress at the moment. I went out to eat with them, and decided to head back home afterwards, skipping out on the invite to see a movie. When I got back to my cave, I tried to set up a shoutcast server, but I didnt have even the smallest clue as to what the directions were talking about. So... feeling completely stupid, and angry at myself for being so, I left the cave again. I drove down to the park nearby.... the most beautiful park in the city. I sat down and pulled out a book to read, and it started to rain. .... .... I got up and took a slow walk around the pathways, and took off my glasses. I couldnt see out of them anyways, with all the moisture. The air and rain felt nice, and I ended up on a bridge over the pond, and stood there for quite a while, watching the rain hit the water, the family of ducks swimming about.
There is nothing like a moment like that, to take your mind off all the worlds worries. :)
I am thankful for the internet, in being able to keep in contact with most people, and meeting a few, very wonderful, new people.
I have been alone most of the day today, not even my parents were home... It's often that I stay locked up in my room, leaving only to eat and use the bathroom. So this afternoon I went to visit my mother and sister, both of whom are going through too much stress at the moment. I went out to eat with them, and decided to head back home afterwards, skipping out on the invite to see a movie. When I got back to my cave, I tried to set up a shoutcast server, but I didnt have even the smallest clue as to what the directions were talking about. So... feeling completely stupid, and angry at myself for being so, I left the cave again. I drove down to the park nearby.... the most beautiful park in the city. I sat down and pulled out a book to read, and it started to rain. .... .... I got up and took a slow walk around the pathways, and took off my glasses. I couldnt see out of them anyways, with all the moisture. The air and rain felt nice, and I ended up on a bridge over the pond, and stood there for quite a while, watching the rain hit the water, the family of ducks swimming about.
There is nothing like a moment like that, to take your mind off all the worlds worries. :)