Ready, Steady, Go!
ok, try #2 for this post as it didn't make it out last night for various reasons, like livejournal screwed up, but who's bitter about it? not me. I'll try and go on about the same things cause i thought it was really good what i said, and probably wont come out the same way. You have all been deprived of my awesome jokes as i was tired when i posted, actually i still am so you never know. the title is a moby song if y'all were a wonderin'. And i'm going to continue to be very vague about most things cause i feel that i should.
Yesterday i ventured down to the car show with chris and spencer, and it wasn't what i thought it would be. It was more like a car lot with all the fancy end cars there, but still it was cool. I thought it would be more like need for speed underground with all the car modding and stuff like that, but no. So we left, and had lunch around 3. Vital information i know.
I was planning on coming home and taking a nap or something cause i was feeling really drained for some reason, but guess what i didn't do. I had recieved an answer to prayer and instead of backing down and hoping for another chance, i took it, unlike most other times before (although not about the same thing) I guess it could be said that i'm learing to take chances, and learning new things about myself at the same time, even though that sounds kinda wierd to me, oh well, moving on. It was more than awesome to see answerd prayer in so many different areas so recently. This is really starting to grow in me alot over the last little while, prayer that is. I know its always something that should be done to bring everything you have and everything you are struggling with to God. I dont know if its just me, something that guys struggle with, or everyone, but it seems like i want to do it all myself and make things happen on my own. I've realized and still am realizing that i need to give this up and truly give it away to God because i'll ultamatly screw it all up. So God, its yours, take it where you will.
I'm starting to dislike the word satisfied, to me it seems that it means settling for the minimum, to just get by with half ass efforts. Along with that, the song not be shaken, the line "those who love the Lord are satisfied" there have been times where i have not been satisfied, with where i have been, with what i have done, with the effort i've put into different things, just down right pissed off at points too. That dosn't change where i am in Christ, i'm still thankful for what hes done for me, and the price he's paid. I dont know, i'd love for anyone whose reading this to have a thought about this and to have the courage to post, cause maybe i'm being dumb and way off base, thats just how i feel.
so that is all i can come up with, this dosn't compare to the rants i had going yesterday and about everything in general. All yous I truly thank God for, even if you havn't realized you've done anything, you've helped me realize the guy i want to be.
"and this is how i choose to live, as if i'm jumping off a cliff,
knowing that you'll save me, knowing that you'll save me;
and after all the stupid things i did, there's nothing left there to forgive,
cause you already forgave me, you already forgave me"
Yesterday i ventured down to the car show with chris and spencer, and it wasn't what i thought it would be. It was more like a car lot with all the fancy end cars there, but still it was cool. I thought it would be more like need for speed underground with all the car modding and stuff like that, but no. So we left, and had lunch around 3. Vital information i know.
I was planning on coming home and taking a nap or something cause i was feeling really drained for some reason, but guess what i didn't do. I had recieved an answer to prayer and instead of backing down and hoping for another chance, i took it, unlike most other times before (although not about the same thing) I guess it could be said that i'm learing to take chances, and learning new things about myself at the same time, even though that sounds kinda wierd to me, oh well, moving on. It was more than awesome to see answerd prayer in so many different areas so recently. This is really starting to grow in me alot over the last little while, prayer that is. I know its always something that should be done to bring everything you have and everything you are struggling with to God. I dont know if its just me, something that guys struggle with, or everyone, but it seems like i want to do it all myself and make things happen on my own. I've realized and still am realizing that i need to give this up and truly give it away to God because i'll ultamatly screw it all up. So God, its yours, take it where you will.
I'm starting to dislike the word satisfied, to me it seems that it means settling for the minimum, to just get by with half ass efforts. Along with that, the song not be shaken, the line "those who love the Lord are satisfied" there have been times where i have not been satisfied, with where i have been, with what i have done, with the effort i've put into different things, just down right pissed off at points too. That dosn't change where i am in Christ, i'm still thankful for what hes done for me, and the price he's paid. I dont know, i'd love for anyone whose reading this to have a thought about this and to have the courage to post, cause maybe i'm being dumb and way off base, thats just how i feel.
so that is all i can come up with, this dosn't compare to the rants i had going yesterday and about everything in general. All yous I truly thank God for, even if you havn't realized you've done anything, you've helped me realize the guy i want to be.
"and this is how i choose to live, as if i'm jumping off a cliff,
knowing that you'll save me, knowing that you'll save me;
and after all the stupid things i did, there's nothing left there to forgive,
cause you already forgave me, you already forgave me"