I feel conflicted
So in a few days I'm leaving with my family for a trip down to the stat where my college is. We're going on a road trip for it, and we're suposed to leave this Saturday. I've got mostly everything packed, and am pretty much ready to go. I can't wait to leave and get on the road.
But a lot of my family (mostly my dad and my sister) aren't all ready yet. My mom is packing at the moment, and that should get her about ready. But my dad has several things he needs to do besides packing, and it's always a struggle to get him working. Usually my mom and him end up fighting about such things, and that always upsets me, so I'm trying to talk to him and ask him to do the things he needs to do, but doing that makes me really sad.
(On another, related, note, my mom often says bad things about my dad to him and me and my sister and it always always upsets me. My dad never says anything bad against my mom (in my or my sister's hearing, at least) and just takes her constant abuse. I don't know how to make him feel better, because I can tell it upsets him, and I don't know how to calm my mom down when she gets like that. Mostly, I just want to leave so it can stop affecting my life.)
My sister, also, is hesitant to pack, or do the work that needs to be done.
These things upset me, mostly because it makes me afraid that we aren't going to be able to leave on the 30th, which I don't know how I'd deal with, because I'm really looking forward to finally leaving. I've been waiting for the time to come for what feels like forever, and I'll be really upset if it doesn't happen then.
Anyway, that's about it, for now. Mostly I just felt like getting it out there in the hopes that it will make me feel better.
Thanks to anyone who reads this, and here's hoping that LJ works long enough to let me post it.
But a lot of my family (mostly my dad and my sister) aren't all ready yet. My mom is packing at the moment, and that should get her about ready. But my dad has several things he needs to do besides packing, and it's always a struggle to get him working. Usually my mom and him end up fighting about such things, and that always upsets me, so I'm trying to talk to him and ask him to do the things he needs to do, but doing that makes me really sad.
(On another, related, note, my mom often says bad things about my dad to him and me and my sister and it always always upsets me. My dad never says anything bad against my mom (in my or my sister's hearing, at least) and just takes her constant abuse. I don't know how to make him feel better, because I can tell it upsets him, and I don't know how to calm my mom down when she gets like that. Mostly, I just want to leave so it can stop affecting my life.)
My sister, also, is hesitant to pack, or do the work that needs to be done.
These things upset me, mostly because it makes me afraid that we aren't going to be able to leave on the 30th, which I don't know how I'd deal with, because I'm really looking forward to finally leaving. I've been waiting for the time to come for what feels like forever, and I'll be really upset if it doesn't happen then.
Anyway, that's about it, for now. Mostly I just felt like getting it out there in the hopes that it will make me feel better.
Thanks to anyone who reads this, and here's hoping that LJ works long enough to let me post it.