Going home always seems to stir my emotions

[theendisnearer]

I broke down the other day. Like full on broke down. I havent had that happen in a really long time. Going home, seeing old friends, long chats, and visiting you just got to me really bad. Its so hard to hear all of those terrible things people had to see. Im glad i wasnt there to witness a best friend hit an all time low. Yet, If I had known and I was there I feel like I could have made a difference. I could have prevented this. I know this is in no way my fault, but I would do anything to have you back. I want to call you and tell you how happy I am in my life right now. I want to tell you that I'm really happy with where I am and hopefully where I am going. You would be so proud of me.

I hate that it has to be this way and I will never understand why it had to be you.