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so winter is finally done and dusted, finito, gone, goodbye. i'm currently sitting on our balcony in Spankbank sipping on a cider in the delightful 26 degrees (i'm very far from sober, i just thought i'd add). melbourneee, you're not too bad sometimes. just sometimes.
i had the day off from workies today, which was pretty damn good. i still would have gladly accepted a shift if i had been offered because of moniezzz, but i guess sitting on the balcony drinking cider definitely outweights being at work and saying on repeat "hello how are you going - do you need a hand with sizes?. seriously, so fucking over it. but i guess there is a very precise "end of the tunnel" in 3 months time when i'm completely done-zo with Shittner fo lyf. i will miss it, but just so ready to move on and do something different. a friend pointed out the last time that i saw her ; "oh my god, you're STILL at Wittner? you've been there for the whole time you've been in melbourne yeah". fuck offfff but yeah, i have and i am not (that much) ashamed. i like security and the fact i have had the same subway-esque job since being in melbourne. but wutevaaaa cuz i'm moving to london bitches and everyone will still be in Australia, finding something to complain about.
i seriously feel like London will be the start of something new and brilliant. this year has been, in a word, shit. my health has gone to shit and dan and i have gone through some silly stages in our relationship and i'm just soooo ready to be on the other side of the world with dan loving my lyf sik in London. i don't know why i feel like London will fix everything, but i just know it will. somehow.
i can't even describe what i'm feeling. almost complete and utter boredom with melbourne and everything to do with melbourne. i feel like i'm in fucking adelaide again. same people. same scenery. same shit. i just need to get tha fuk out of here and have a year of being a nomad and doing what the fuck we want. and i get to do it all with Daniel. next year is going to be so perfect. i just know it.
got back from Adelaide/NSW last week, which was the best fucking break from Melbourne. i really needed to get out of here for as long as possible and have time away from Shittner. it was so good seeing where Dan was from. a lot of shit went down, but we are okay now. adelaide was so much fun. i don't know why, but i feel like i am identifying more with Adelaide at the moment. i keep having really strong urges to be back there, and when i do go back, everything is fun again.
i've started eating again, which i guess is a good place to be. i started to scare myself and so did certain people in adelaide who don't see me on a day to day basis. it was getting to the point where i couldn't even find the energy in me to climb up the stairs at work. shit was getting real. i'll get there. one day.
so that's pretty much about it. i'm sitting on the balcony waiting for Daniel to return from his fourth to last day at placement. i can't wait for him to be done. i hate seeing him this stressed.
orright, cider is going warm. fucking loveeeee this weather. not long until we are in the freezing cold so i am going to make the most of it.
okay BAI X
i had the day off from workies today, which was pretty damn good. i still would have gladly accepted a shift if i had been offered because of moniezzz, but i guess sitting on the balcony drinking cider definitely outweights being at work and saying on repeat "hello how are you going - do you need a hand with sizes?. seriously, so fucking over it. but i guess there is a very precise "end of the tunnel" in 3 months time when i'm completely done-zo with Shittner fo lyf. i will miss it, but just so ready to move on and do something different. a friend pointed out the last time that i saw her ; "oh my god, you're STILL at Wittner? you've been there for the whole time you've been in melbourne yeah". fuck offfff but yeah, i have and i am not (that much) ashamed. i like security and the fact i have had the same subway-esque job since being in melbourne. but wutevaaaa cuz i'm moving to london bitches and everyone will still be in Australia, finding something to complain about.
i seriously feel like London will be the start of something new and brilliant. this year has been, in a word, shit. my health has gone to shit and dan and i have gone through some silly stages in our relationship and i'm just soooo ready to be on the other side of the world with dan loving my lyf sik in London. i don't know why i feel like London will fix everything, but i just know it will. somehow.
i can't even describe what i'm feeling. almost complete and utter boredom with melbourne and everything to do with melbourne. i feel like i'm in fucking adelaide again. same people. same scenery. same shit. i just need to get tha fuk out of here and have a year of being a nomad and doing what the fuck we want. and i get to do it all with Daniel. next year is going to be so perfect. i just know it.
got back from Adelaide/NSW last week, which was the best fucking break from Melbourne. i really needed to get out of here for as long as possible and have time away from Shittner. it was so good seeing where Dan was from. a lot of shit went down, but we are okay now. adelaide was so much fun. i don't know why, but i feel like i am identifying more with Adelaide at the moment. i keep having really strong urges to be back there, and when i do go back, everything is fun again.
i've started eating again, which i guess is a good place to be. i started to scare myself and so did certain people in adelaide who don't see me on a day to day basis. it was getting to the point where i couldn't even find the energy in me to climb up the stairs at work. shit was getting real. i'll get there. one day.
so that's pretty much about it. i'm sitting on the balcony waiting for Daniel to return from his fourth to last day at placement. i can't wait for him to be done. i hate seeing him this stressed.
orright, cider is going warm. fucking loveeeee this weather. not long until we are in the freezing cold so i am going to make the most of it.
okay BAI X