goodbye
so for now i'll say goodbye pittsburgh.
and hello world.
my problems that you might not of noticed:
i hate when people tell me they'll do something and then don't
it seriously could make me go phsycho. i'm totally not kidding. it's scarey and it scares me.
i hate when people say they won't do something and then they do it.
i hate when people are shady.
i hate when i give people second chances and they fuck up again
and i hate how i always give in to give them more and more.
i hate how i know i've done things wrong but then when i'm talking about someone
who did something RECENT they come back and shove my past in my face.
yes. past when i'm talking about the recent.
i hate myself
i have the worst case of low self esteem and confidence
no one seems to notice.
i literally hate myself and i've told myself serveral times how ugly i am
and how i wish i were dead.
it's a serious thing.
and sometimes i think to myself why would i be in a relationship?
my self confidence is so low and i think the worst things of myself
to the point that every girl i see i'm like...
"do i need to be more like them? do you want me to be like that?
do you like that better? should i get that pierced? do you think that's hot?
you staring at your girlfriend?
it's bad.
i've never been like this before and i don't know why i'm like this now.
it's killing me.
i can hardly eat.
i eat so much when i'm bored but like
if something happends before i eat...
that makes my nerves go haywire i won't eat. and i won't eat for hours.
i hate everything about my body. everything except my smile. but then again many people all me a horse and so on so i really don't know. so that only leaves...my toes? but then people have said that they're too long. then it's my butt. but i think it's just all fucking FAT. then there is my legs. i know they're too big. they rub together and just go straight into my ass [making my ass look huge] but anyways. some people have said they like them...but i don't. i don't like anything about myself. i wish i was someone totally different.
life is going to be so hard.
i've had so much stress on me lately
from literally everyone
every single person i've ever met.
it's killing me...slowly.
my syst is killing me. when i bend over i could cry. this morning i coughed and i felt like someone stabbed me right there in my side.
-_- i hate when people don't listen to me.
anyways.
that's enough bitching for now.
parents don't want me
friends don't want me
who does.
i never feel good enough. ever.
i hate people who smoke weed and drink -_-
and hello world.
my problems that you might not of noticed:
i hate when people tell me they'll do something and then don't
it seriously could make me go phsycho. i'm totally not kidding. it's scarey and it scares me.
i hate when people say they won't do something and then they do it.
i hate when people are shady.
i hate when i give people second chances and they fuck up again
and i hate how i always give in to give them more and more.
i hate how i know i've done things wrong but then when i'm talking about someone
who did something RECENT they come back and shove my past in my face.
yes. past when i'm talking about the recent.
i hate myself
i have the worst case of low self esteem and confidence
no one seems to notice.
i literally hate myself and i've told myself serveral times how ugly i am
and how i wish i were dead.
it's a serious thing.
and sometimes i think to myself why would i be in a relationship?
my self confidence is so low and i think the worst things of myself
to the point that every girl i see i'm like...
"do i need to be more like them? do you want me to be like that?
do you like that better? should i get that pierced? do you think that's hot?
you staring at your girlfriend?
it's bad.
i've never been like this before and i don't know why i'm like this now.
it's killing me.
i can hardly eat.
i eat so much when i'm bored but like
if something happends before i eat...
that makes my nerves go haywire i won't eat. and i won't eat for hours.
i hate everything about my body. everything except my smile. but then again many people all me a horse and so on so i really don't know. so that only leaves...my toes? but then people have said that they're too long. then it's my butt. but i think it's just all fucking FAT. then there is my legs. i know they're too big. they rub together and just go straight into my ass [making my ass look huge] but anyways. some people have said they like them...but i don't. i don't like anything about myself. i wish i was someone totally different.
life is going to be so hard.
i've had so much stress on me lately
from literally everyone
every single person i've ever met.
it's killing me...slowly.
my syst is killing me. when i bend over i could cry. this morning i coughed and i felt like someone stabbed me right there in my side.
-_- i hate when people don't listen to me.
anyways.
that's enough bitching for now.
parents don't want me
friends don't want me
who does.
i never feel good enough. ever.
i hate people who smoke weed and drink -_-