the little things
do something little for me
show me your always thinking about me:]
work tonight
rick's tomorrow
rick's thursday
dad comes friday
dad leaves saturday
rick's sunday
rick's monday
rick's tuesday
rick's wednesday
rick's thursday
rick's friday
rick's saturday
rick's sunday
rick's monday
rick's tuesday
rick's wednesday
are you getting tired yet
rick's thursday
rick's friday
rick's saturday
actually his mom probably won't let me stay there for part of the summer, so i don't know where i'll be. but i'll be trying to spend all the time i can with rick♥
i want to go back to his grandpap's house. it's so cute there! i really enjoyed this weekend and it kinda hurts inside that i had to go back home. i didn't want to and rick's mom made me feel so welcomed there. she's such a beautiful person, on the inside and out. i actually think she's one of the prettiest mom's i've ever seen. i remember sunday night on the way to pick her up with rich and his kids. she was standing outside of rich's house and she walked up to rick's truck and she looked so pretty! i really like her new hair! i asked rick last night how much roses are; he probably thinks i'm getting him some but i'm not. "i got to watch my money." instead i wanted to get her four roses. one for each night she kept me at her house and kept my parents off my back. she didn't do it for that reason but...that's what she helped out with and it felt so nice to be free. when i went home last night my parents didn't speak one word to me. they didn't even ask how my time was, because like i always tell everyone, "they don't care." i don't need much; a place to sleep and a place to feel welcomed. a place to make friends and a place to respect. i'd help clean i always have and always will. when i stayed with kari i would scrub the bathtub and help out with dishes and cook kari lunch and dinner♥. i just want some place to have fun but yet respect the people around me; because the respect me. i just don't feel like my parents respect me at all; even though i tried so hard through highschool. i honestly feel like they don't like me at all. they don't talk to me, the only time they would or do is if they want something or if they want to bitch. that's the way it's always been. things will be good but then they go shitty because they have a bad day and take it out on me so i get pissy and yell and it's just one big fight. i was actually happy to see my mom yesturday, through everything she's said to me and done. she walked through the back door and i bundled up on the couch all excited and smiled big and said, "how's the party going?" and she just stommped by and said, "i don't want to talk to you right now." so i just frowned and kept watching t.v. when i got home from rick's they were gone and i had called to see where they were. they didn't answer their cell phones so i called again and they still didn't answer. mom finally called and acted all FAKE and NICE on the phone but then when she had gotten home to change clothes and go back she didn't say a word except the fact she didn't want to talk to me. she didn't invite me to go up to the party or anything. they don't want me around period. it's so lame. i don't feel welcomed in my OWN DAMN HOUSE!
i love you rick
show me your always thinking about me:]
work tonight
rick's tomorrow
rick's thursday
dad comes friday
dad leaves saturday
rick's sunday
rick's monday
rick's tuesday
rick's wednesday
rick's thursday
rick's friday
rick's saturday
rick's sunday
rick's monday
rick's tuesday
rick's wednesday
are you getting tired yet
rick's thursday
rick's friday
rick's saturday
actually his mom probably won't let me stay there for part of the summer, so i don't know where i'll be. but i'll be trying to spend all the time i can with rick♥
i want to go back to his grandpap's house. it's so cute there! i really enjoyed this weekend and it kinda hurts inside that i had to go back home. i didn't want to and rick's mom made me feel so welcomed there. she's such a beautiful person, on the inside and out. i actually think she's one of the prettiest mom's i've ever seen. i remember sunday night on the way to pick her up with rich and his kids. she was standing outside of rich's house and she walked up to rick's truck and she looked so pretty! i really like her new hair! i asked rick last night how much roses are; he probably thinks i'm getting him some but i'm not. "i got to watch my money." instead i wanted to get her four roses. one for each night she kept me at her house and kept my parents off my back. she didn't do it for that reason but...that's what she helped out with and it felt so nice to be free. when i went home last night my parents didn't speak one word to me. they didn't even ask how my time was, because like i always tell everyone, "they don't care." i don't need much; a place to sleep and a place to feel welcomed. a place to make friends and a place to respect. i'd help clean i always have and always will. when i stayed with kari i would scrub the bathtub and help out with dishes and cook kari lunch and dinner♥. i just want some place to have fun but yet respect the people around me; because the respect me. i just don't feel like my parents respect me at all; even though i tried so hard through highschool. i honestly feel like they don't like me at all. they don't talk to me, the only time they would or do is if they want something or if they want to bitch. that's the way it's always been. things will be good but then they go shitty because they have a bad day and take it out on me so i get pissy and yell and it's just one big fight. i was actually happy to see my mom yesturday, through everything she's said to me and done. she walked through the back door and i bundled up on the couch all excited and smiled big and said, "how's the party going?" and she just stommped by and said, "i don't want to talk to you right now." so i just frowned and kept watching t.v. when i got home from rick's they were gone and i had called to see where they were. they didn't answer their cell phones so i called again and they still didn't answer. mom finally called and acted all FAKE and NICE on the phone but then when she had gotten home to change clothes and go back she didn't say a word except the fact she didn't want to talk to me. she didn't invite me to go up to the party or anything. they don't want me around period. it's so lame. i don't feel welcomed in my OWN DAMN HOUSE!
i love you rick