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Bad day today, and i have the feeling its only going to get worse.. And whats more worrying than this, is the fact that i don't care.. monday i came so close to phoning college and saying "yep.. no more.." but i didn't and even then it was only because my mum practically gave me a lacture on why i should stay in college. I don't want to be here, i never have. I put on that smile, and the attitude to hide behind, instead i just wish it would end.
I wish i didn't have to go through this day in and day out.. the fact is I'm just like each and every other student here.. yet i feel so isolated, so different to them. I feel as if i know something that everyone else doesn't, yet i'm unsure what it is i know. I feel like my life has some meaning, some purpose yet i can't pinpoint what it is.. why i'm here and what all this bull is for..
If i had a choice, life wouldn't be my first option.. lets put it that way..
there are so many other things that i could be doing right now, and instead my life is focused around a point in space and time that i wish never existed..
Meh.. As you can see.. i'm in a mood to wrtie Chapter two of that thing i posted earlier (look below this you silly unsure of yourselves people :P) I've written half of it but not had chance to get it completed.. i know what i'm going to write mind. I'll find the answer to my life, i just need time.. yet time is what keeps slipping away..
I wish i didn't have to go through this day in and day out.. the fact is I'm just like each and every other student here.. yet i feel so isolated, so different to them. I feel as if i know something that everyone else doesn't, yet i'm unsure what it is i know. I feel like my life has some meaning, some purpose yet i can't pinpoint what it is.. why i'm here and what all this bull is for..
If i had a choice, life wouldn't be my first option.. lets put it that way..
there are so many other things that i could be doing right now, and instead my life is focused around a point in space and time that i wish never existed..
Meh.. As you can see.. i'm in a mood to wrtie Chapter two of that thing i posted earlier (look below this you silly unsure of yourselves people :P) I've written half of it but not had chance to get it completed.. i know what i'm going to write mind. I'll find the answer to my life, i just need time.. yet time is what keeps slipping away..