FUCKING KILL ME OH MY GOD
So fucking overwhelmed allthefuckingtime.
Running a contracting company while running a production company while trying to build a home with Nicole basically means I have no time, ever, for anything, that is just for me. I just want five fucking minutes to myself. The only alone time I get is after Nikki goes to sleep, so that means by default that I have to knowingly deprive myself of life-saving-sleep to do anything I actually want to do in my life. I live my life for other people, 24 hours a day, seven days a week. I'm fucking sick of it. I just want to feel for one goddamn moment like I'm doing WHAT I WANT WITH MY OWN FUCKING LIFE. And that will never happen because I'm a slave to the economy, to Nikki, to the Facist State of California and the US Government, to my dad, to JUSTIN FUCKING MARRA, and to whatever entitled fucking asshole calls us for Handyman work next.
I'm really tired of being an adult. Can I just go back to being a child again?
Running a contracting company while running a production company while trying to build a home with Nicole basically means I have no time, ever, for anything, that is just for me. I just want five fucking minutes to myself. The only alone time I get is after Nikki goes to sleep, so that means by default that I have to knowingly deprive myself of life-saving-sleep to do anything I actually want to do in my life. I live my life for other people, 24 hours a day, seven days a week. I'm fucking sick of it. I just want to feel for one goddamn moment like I'm doing WHAT I WANT WITH MY OWN FUCKING LIFE. And that will never happen because I'm a slave to the economy, to Nikki, to the Facist State of California and the US Government, to my dad, to JUSTIN FUCKING MARRA, and to whatever entitled fucking asshole calls us for Handyman work next.
I'm really tired of being an adult. Can I just go back to being a child again?