it's cold...
i gotta work today and right now it's pretty damn cold. it's better than scorching hot like it's been lately. i can feel it, todays gonna be a good day at work. maybe that's because it's my last day for the next three weeks. yup, i'm leavin soon.
honestly, when i think about it, i'm kindda scared to go on this trip. i mean, i'm scared to leave everyone behind for three weeks. whose gonna think about me when i'm gone? whose gonna miss me? whose gonna say, "when the hell is sarah gonna get back?" i'm even more scared for the answer i might get from that. i'm afraid that i'm just gonna be forgotten and not cared about. i wish everyone's life could just stop for three weeks. i don't want them to go on without me, i don't wanna miss out on anything. i want to be wanted. dumb right? thats what i thought when i read what i just wrote.
i guess i have a family dinner tonight. it's gonna be a good dinner, not so good company. i wish i could have a friend with me. i don't really want to be around my family right now, i wanna be with my friends before i leave. but it's a taco dinner and i love my mom's home cookin.' YUM YUM!! i might go to the art fair with my sister and my mom on saturday morning. i haven't decided yet. that night is summer cel. SEETHER AND CROSSFADE, YOU SHOULD ALL GO!!! i love seether. uumm, just more packing, then sunday is the big day. i leave. don't know what to really say about that.