my first day back, yay.......NOT
this didn't mean to be a complaining kind of update, but it turned out to be just that, so don't read unless you don't want to hear it.
well, today was my first day back to work at Michigan's Adventure's. that was lovely. not really. today just reminded me how much i hate working there. there's a certain person at my work who i want to kill. i'm not kidding, i'm hiring a hit man, anybody know anybody good? he's such a fucking ass hole i can't stand him. he thinks he's the shit and he knows everything. he's always right and everybody else is wrong on every subject under the sun. even farther than that because he claims to be christian and he says he follows God but he doesn't act like it. he cheats on his girlfriends, he uses girls (including me), and he lies. not to mention he's made me feel like i wanted to kill myself more than once. i'm completely disgusted by him and he needs to die. i'm not try to sound immature about it all, but i'm serious, i can't live knowing he's out there planning his next attack on some helpless girl. i can't live knowing he's living. everytime i see him my body fills with anger and i don't know what to do. everybody else at my work likes him and thinks he's cool, i just want to shake them and pour my heart out to them telling them how much he's hurt me in the past. he still affects me today in ways i can't explain. i hate him and i wish i could just erase him from my memory and go on with life but no matter how hard i try i can't. he makes me cry all the time, even now. i can't think strait, all i can think about is how much he's hurt me and how many times i hurt myself because he hurt me. he's had such a huge impact on my life, none of it being good. he tore my heart in pieces and let them lay there until he was ready to pick them up and try to put the pieces back together, but he never could. he didn't even try to put them back togerther now that i look at it. all he did was put a few back together until i was satisfied, used me when i was vulnerable, them ripped the pieces apart agian. sorry if none of this is making sense, cuz i'm starting to get confused myself. all i know is that i can't be around him without thinking, "HOW COULD YOU NOT KNOW HOW MUCH YOU HURT ME? MUCH LESS, HOW COULD YOU NOT CARE?"
i also got sunburned. it kindda hurts but i know a tan is on it's way. YAY!!