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School + Work + Black Vortex that steals my stuff = total lack of a life for me. However, I do find that I still have time left to reflect on things, which is bad, becasue that's always how I've managed to get myself all depressed for no good reason.
On another note, I am single after a very short period of time. However, I'm not upset about that at all for some reason, I'm really not.
Have I ever made a difference? Ever left enough of a mark to be so much as a brief memory? Or was I really that un-present the last 6 years of my life? Its amazing how I still let things from the past, childish and stupid things... still let them get to me. They hurt.
On the bright side I'm making a lot of money with Pampered Chef so hopefully I'll be able to quit my other job. I'm also auditioning for a private grant in Philly in April.
I just wish I knew how to leave the past behind me and move on with only what I choose to take with me. I wish I could say I made a difference in high school and that I helped someone in the past, but I can't say that and that doesn't make me feel to awesome. Why do I let it still get to me?
On another side note, I found an apartment in Drexel Hill that my parents agreed I can move into, and therefore I signed the lease papers on friday. I move in between mid-March and April 1st. Still not happy about not being allowed to live in the city.
Things to do:
Perfect the B to C trill
Finish Transposing "Der Guten Tag Hop Clop"
Choose an Aria for my next Jury
Actually move-in to my new apartment
On another note, I am single after a very short period of time. However, I'm not upset about that at all for some reason, I'm really not.
Have I ever made a difference? Ever left enough of a mark to be so much as a brief memory? Or was I really that un-present the last 6 years of my life? Its amazing how I still let things from the past, childish and stupid things... still let them get to me. They hurt.
On the bright side I'm making a lot of money with Pampered Chef so hopefully I'll be able to quit my other job. I'm also auditioning for a private grant in Philly in April.
I just wish I knew how to leave the past behind me and move on with only what I choose to take with me. I wish I could say I made a difference in high school and that I helped someone in the past, but I can't say that and that doesn't make me feel to awesome. Why do I let it still get to me?
On another side note, I found an apartment in Drexel Hill that my parents agreed I can move into, and therefore I signed the lease papers on friday. I move in between mid-March and April 1st. Still not happy about not being allowed to live in the city.
Things to do:
Perfect the B to C trill
Finish Transposing "Der Guten Tag Hop Clop"
Choose an Aria for my next Jury
Actually move-in to my new apartment