I hate sundays ...
Well ... happy fucking easter. I hope it rots in hell ... In honor of my torment ... I will fast for this day. My agony has gotten the best of me. I didn't want it to be like this ... I can feel it swell up in my chest. I have been so caught up in making sure people are happy and casting my needs ... my desires ... aside for them. How fucking selfish is that! God damn! I apologize for looking out for people!
No more. From this moment on, I am looking out for me. In the end it is only me ... from the beginning it was only me ... currently ... it is only me. Time for the suffering to begin. No ... I won't let it. I am a heartless asshole for a reason ... and this is that reason. I can only be told .... ... .. . yeah ... Kim knows, for so long! Now, to hell with it.
For those who read this, you know who you are, I am sorry. But, these next few weeks will be hell for me. Today is the start of something very bad. You know I won't talk about it. But, you two tend to get me to talk so maybe I will. I just hope it doesn't effect May ... which I don't want to think about now.
Signing off ....
- B
No more. From this moment on, I am looking out for me. In the end it is only me ... from the beginning it was only me ... currently ... it is only me. Time for the suffering to begin. No ... I won't let it. I am a heartless asshole for a reason ... and this is that reason. I can only be told .... ... .. . yeah ... Kim knows, for so long! Now, to hell with it.
For those who read this, you know who you are, I am sorry. But, these next few weeks will be hell for me. Today is the start of something very bad. You know I won't talk about it. But, you two tend to get me to talk so maybe I will. I just hope it doesn't effect May ... which I don't want to think about now.
Signing off ....
- B