Deep breath ...

[thedragon11]

Hmm ... I have been feeling like this off and on. I know what I should do, but I don't want to. I feel bad about it. It is stupid. It is a fatal flaw of mine. I don't know. Sometimes I know when I am beaten. I tend to do this ... defeat myself in a game I am not playing ... nor want to. It pushes me ... to an end that I see coming. Though it isn't an end, but a big start to something great. I would leave almost everything behind ... But, then, what do I really have here? In about an hour, I am going to try something ... I make this goal now ... if it does not work by April ... 20th. I will do it. I will keep it a secret to many until the final week, or two. Now, I must decide which of the ... three I will try. Really only 2 ... mainly 1 but still an option. That gives me a month ... then another few before I start.

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Cursed downstairs against my will ... I don't know why I have to think so much ... I am going to stop writing and continue working on something ....