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Between being so different, having to try to mediate my moods (which means keeping them to myself for the first 23 years of my life), and all of the bullshit with girls, I really keep things to myself. Now that I am more balanced, I really see how I hold the cards close to the chest. It takes me a while to open up completely, and I am still so strategic with what I show. I have this discipline so I don't show my weaknesses, the things that bother me, even nervous tics. I don't show emotions I don't want to. I see all the things around me now.
I really like it. I feel like I am in so much control. I am comfortable, even if I feel calculated.
I really like it. I feel like I am in so much control. I am comfortable, even if I feel calculated.