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you know when i went on this medicine, i knew there would be changes. and i was ready to let everything go and change everything to make it better. i guess i never thought in a million years it would change things with meg and i, and that is the only thing i really cared about keeping the same. it's making things so much harder.
we really butted heads. things are changing, and i dont know how. i know they're different and that i am more stable but it's so subtle but radical i can't even follow it. all i know is that i am more functional. but it changes all of my relationships. especially melissa and meg. i have no idea what will happen with melissa. but meg and i had the same things going on, and now i dont. i never knew this would happen. it's scary as all hell.
i was ready for all the other changes, but this isn't okay. we've got to work at this. it's not okay. i'm not going to lose my closest friend over this.
we really butted heads. things are changing, and i dont know how. i know they're different and that i am more stable but it's so subtle but radical i can't even follow it. all i know is that i am more functional. but it changes all of my relationships. especially melissa and meg. i have no idea what will happen with melissa. but meg and i had the same things going on, and now i dont. i never knew this would happen. it's scary as all hell.
i was ready for all the other changes, but this isn't okay. we've got to work at this. it's not okay. i'm not going to lose my closest friend over this.