Monotony!
Okay, I don't mean to be such a huge downer, since everything I post in my journal is negative, pretty much. But I can't help it if that's the kind of stuff that's really on my mind, under the surface.
I'm so tired of working. I've had to work 8 hour days, which I'm not used to, for five days in a row. Tomorrow is the fifth day. You might say, "That's normal!" But not for me. I haven't worked 40 hours a week in a long time. And I usually don't have to work for this many days in a row. Honestly, it just gets kind of boring. I get to the point where I just so badly don't want to work, because it's just so tiring to be there all the time. And it doesn't help that I felt like crap today.
Hopefully the "feeling like crap" thing will at least be alleviated soon. I'm going to the doctor at 8 am (who knew he was even there that early?) and I'll get some prescription allergy meds. Probably Zyrtec...I know that stuff actually works for me. Ugh. I don't want to have to be at work for so long tomorrow, AGAIN. But at least I get a break on Saturday.
I'm looking forward to Saturday with Wendy more and more. I'll be going over there in the afternoon, and we'll stroll around downtown Bay City, or watch movies, or something. It looks like I will get to spend time with her, and not just at this bonfire. Which I'm happy about, since I'm so excited to finally meet her. It's been a long time. And she has such a great personality...I bet we'll get along well. She's really funny.
I don't really know if I have it in my head that she could be someone I would date, or not. I mean, she is more established thatn me. She's three years older, which isn't a lot, but it is in terms of the fact that I should have been out of college by now, let alone still only like halfway through. She already has a career and everything...But anyway, who knows. I guess I really am jumping the gun...I've never even actually met her.
I guess it's typical that I'd start noticing whenever anyone might have potential again, now that I know that Liz and I probably won't work out. I feel so pathetic, having such little luck with dating at my age...
Of course, it all stems back to not having the guts to ask anyone out. Which I still have a problem with, as evidenced by the fact that I don't have the guts to ask a girl out at work that I think likes me. It's just friggin' difficult for me. I'm so afraid of things potentially being awkward with her after that...But I guess I only live once, right? And so far, this one life has not been as action-packed as I'd like it to be.
Okay, I'm getting tired. Time to get through my "last" day (after I go to the doctor hella early, of course.) Then I've got some time to myself...
I'm so tired of working. I've had to work 8 hour days, which I'm not used to, for five days in a row. Tomorrow is the fifth day. You might say, "That's normal!" But not for me. I haven't worked 40 hours a week in a long time. And I usually don't have to work for this many days in a row. Honestly, it just gets kind of boring. I get to the point where I just so badly don't want to work, because it's just so tiring to be there all the time. And it doesn't help that I felt like crap today.
Hopefully the "feeling like crap" thing will at least be alleviated soon. I'm going to the doctor at 8 am (who knew he was even there that early?) and I'll get some prescription allergy meds. Probably Zyrtec...I know that stuff actually works for me. Ugh. I don't want to have to be at work for so long tomorrow, AGAIN. But at least I get a break on Saturday.
I'm looking forward to Saturday with Wendy more and more. I'll be going over there in the afternoon, and we'll stroll around downtown Bay City, or watch movies, or something. It looks like I will get to spend time with her, and not just at this bonfire. Which I'm happy about, since I'm so excited to finally meet her. It's been a long time. And she has such a great personality...I bet we'll get along well. She's really funny.
I don't really know if I have it in my head that she could be someone I would date, or not. I mean, she is more established thatn me. She's three years older, which isn't a lot, but it is in terms of the fact that I should have been out of college by now, let alone still only like halfway through. She already has a career and everything...But anyway, who knows. I guess I really am jumping the gun...I've never even actually met her.
I guess it's typical that I'd start noticing whenever anyone might have potential again, now that I know that Liz and I probably won't work out. I feel so pathetic, having such little luck with dating at my age...
Of course, it all stems back to not having the guts to ask anyone out. Which I still have a problem with, as evidenced by the fact that I don't have the guts to ask a girl out at work that I think likes me. It's just friggin' difficult for me. I'm so afraid of things potentially being awkward with her after that...But I guess I only live once, right? And so far, this one life has not been as action-packed as I'd like it to be.
Okay, I'm getting tired. Time to get through my "last" day (after I go to the doctor hella early, of course.) Then I've got some time to myself...