The call that made my day
Cassie called me back today. I was so excited. I was thinking, "What happens if she doesn't call back? I mean, I think she likes me alright, and I feel like that probably won't happen, but what if she doesn't?" I can't help but worry like that no matter what. And then, when I was at work this afternoon...I got a voicemail from her. (My phone gets horrible signal at work.) I was so happy to hear from her, and to be able to tell that it was fine with her that I had called. I just hope this really is the first step to really being able to talk more...if it starts to feel really natural, things will be so much easier. I'm so happy! I'm really into her, and this is the best "vibe" I've ever gotten from a girl, the feeling that we really might get to know each other better. I'm excited! So that made me feel much better when I've been feeling so down and lonely lately...
Just sitting around on my butt doing nothing tonight, but it doesn't feel quite so bad this time. Maybe if I actually can make things different this time, and not let opportunities get away from me, I could actually be on the road to being happier. It's the first time in I don't know how long that I've really felt like that...I'll have to see what happens...
I'm definitely looking forward to when we stop playing phone tag and I can actually talk to her, haha. That would be much better. I guess she worked a double shift today...I'm pretty sure she's a waitress at what sounds like a pretty cool restaurant right on Lake St. Clair. I would hate waiting tables, personally. Seems like a lot of hard work. Having to take on stuff like double shifts to try to make more...I would hate the uncertainty of the amount of money you make depending on how many customers you have. That's too much to worry about. I love being able to practically sit on my ass half the time at Kroger and still make $11.57/hr. anyway. I'll make that much whether it's busy or whether there's like no one there and I don't have to do anything. That's much better...it's not like I want to have to work that hard, or worry that much about the certainty of money coming in when all I'm doing is making a bit of money while I go to school...but hopefully she likes it okay. I guess you could really rack up a lot of tips today, though....restaurants must be busy on Sweetest Day.
Ah, Sweetest Day...sigh. Can't wait until these kinds of occasions can actually mean something to me.
Btw, speaking of waiters, I saw Waiting... last night, and it was friggin' hilarious. I loved it. But then, I love anything that's ridiculously stupid and disgusting. Very cultured of me, right? They need to make a movie like that about working at a supermarket. I'd love watching that...haha.
But yes, I have hope for a change. And now, I shall wrap it up, and I hope this hope lasts...
Just sitting around on my butt doing nothing tonight, but it doesn't feel quite so bad this time. Maybe if I actually can make things different this time, and not let opportunities get away from me, I could actually be on the road to being happier. It's the first time in I don't know how long that I've really felt like that...I'll have to see what happens...
I'm definitely looking forward to when we stop playing phone tag and I can actually talk to her, haha. That would be much better. I guess she worked a double shift today...I'm pretty sure she's a waitress at what sounds like a pretty cool restaurant right on Lake St. Clair. I would hate waiting tables, personally. Seems like a lot of hard work. Having to take on stuff like double shifts to try to make more...I would hate the uncertainty of the amount of money you make depending on how many customers you have. That's too much to worry about. I love being able to practically sit on my ass half the time at Kroger and still make $11.57/hr. anyway. I'll make that much whether it's busy or whether there's like no one there and I don't have to do anything. That's much better...it's not like I want to have to work that hard, or worry that much about the certainty of money coming in when all I'm doing is making a bit of money while I go to school...but hopefully she likes it okay. I guess you could really rack up a lot of tips today, though....restaurants must be busy on Sweetest Day.
Ah, Sweetest Day...sigh. Can't wait until these kinds of occasions can actually mean something to me.
Btw, speaking of waiters, I saw Waiting... last night, and it was friggin' hilarious. I loved it. But then, I love anything that's ridiculously stupid and disgusting. Very cultured of me, right? They need to make a movie like that about working at a supermarket. I'd love watching that...haha.
But yes, I have hope for a change. And now, I shall wrap it up, and I hope this hope lasts...