Whose mother's maiden name is spite
There are often times in our lives where we make mistakes, and in such an event, are compelled to apologize, or to make excuses for words, actions, and feelings. The events oflast weekend fall under this heading. What happened was horrible, miserable, and probably one of the worst things I've done in a long while. And it did require an apology. Not for anything I said, or anything I felt, since tact is thankfully one of my stronger suits, and naturally, what I feel cannot be corrected, or altered at this point. I apologize only for my actions, and more specifically, only to Jasper himself. The rest of you can go gossip and grumble on your own time about waht happened, but for the record, I'll clarify what you've been saying about me and hating me for. Again, I only apologize that you, Jasper, might have to read this, if only for some fools to know what really happened.
First and foremost, I did not break up with Jasper in favor of Garic. The whole open dating thing came about as a way to try and fix what already happened. I was growing in a different direction from Jasper, and decided I needed something else than what we had. This was naturally my first mistake. Had I been honest with him, I would have ended it then, but knowing something like this would happen, I put it off. I'm sorry I procrastinate, but not for trying to salvage what we had.
Some of you are pissed off because I dated someone that we hung out with. Well, I won't apologize for my tastes, or how things turned out. As you all know, Mandeville's a minute place, with only so many fantastic people in it. It's probably a 70-30 chance they'd probably know eachother. If you want to hate me for how I feel about someone, go ahead, but it's petty. I can't change how I feel as much as you can't change your values. I'm only sorry that Jasper had to endure that. I know it's not fair, and he deserves better, but I will not lie to him, you, or myself.
Now, go ahead and think this is bullshit, because, frankly, I don't mind. Honesty is a new found trait that I don't intend to see made a trend. So, you're welcome to harbor some hate over what happened. I would only expect that from Jasper's closest friends. I give you only what you're too closed-lipped to ask, though. You may not agree with it, but then again, you don't have to...Because it doesn't have anything to do with you. But I hold no bones to it. It only bothers me that you didn't come to me first, after ranting on for ages about how that bothers you to no end. I of course know that every break up is bad,and no one ever comes out unscathed. But, even so,none of them need you involved. So, as a request not to my friends, but to his, bury the hatchet and find him something to perk up his spirits. Your spite's not helping anyone.
First and foremost, I did not break up with Jasper in favor of Garic. The whole open dating thing came about as a way to try and fix what already happened. I was growing in a different direction from Jasper, and decided I needed something else than what we had. This was naturally my first mistake. Had I been honest with him, I would have ended it then, but knowing something like this would happen, I put it off. I'm sorry I procrastinate, but not for trying to salvage what we had.
Some of you are pissed off because I dated someone that we hung out with. Well, I won't apologize for my tastes, or how things turned out. As you all know, Mandeville's a minute place, with only so many fantastic people in it. It's probably a 70-30 chance they'd probably know eachother. If you want to hate me for how I feel about someone, go ahead, but it's petty. I can't change how I feel as much as you can't change your values. I'm only sorry that Jasper had to endure that. I know it's not fair, and he deserves better, but I will not lie to him, you, or myself.
Now, go ahead and think this is bullshit, because, frankly, I don't mind. Honesty is a new found trait that I don't intend to see made a trend. So, you're welcome to harbor some hate over what happened. I would only expect that from Jasper's closest friends. I give you only what you're too closed-lipped to ask, though. You may not agree with it, but then again, you don't have to...Because it doesn't have anything to do with you. But I hold no bones to it. It only bothers me that you didn't come to me first, after ranting on for ages about how that bothers you to no end. I of course know that every break up is bad,and no one ever comes out unscathed. But, even so,none of them need you involved. So, as a request not to my friends, but to his, bury the hatchet and find him something to perk up his spirits. Your spite's not helping anyone.