lost.
They say the truth always comes out under the influence, and maybe it did. Lost amongst a pint of Guinness in Montreal, I resorted to beer tears and assessed my current living situation and the faults in which it possesses many. The main question that I kept asking myself was if Burlington is the right place for me. It seemed like the perfect place a few years ago. But as I stated sometime (maybe almost a year ago) when I began work on my album, The Burlington Project, this place is really misleading. It was nice to escape it over the weekend. The problem is, that everyweekend I either leave or stay in the dorms. My social life has been reduced to nothingness. I don't even sit on the computer all night anymore. Instead, I just don't go out. The cops are here to instill fear, not protect and serve. And my life becomes a Durkheim study. I become detached from society because of integration and regulation rules. Sometimes I feel as though I have too much of a presence and random kids say hi to me that I have never seen before and it's a wierd feeling when it happens more than once in the same day. I'm not famous or something, but there is this good Kurt Cobain quote that is something along the lines of, 'I wish I could have taken a class that could have prepared me for being famous'. So I resort to the ipod. The ipod is the key to isolation. You just turn on, and tune out. It saves you from lots of small talk that you don't want. But, of course there is a downside. People get offended that you don't want to stop and say hi and that you are "too busy with your music". I guess, what I'm trying to say, is that a lot of people annoy me, but it's not so much the people, as it is, I'm just annoyed with my social settings and that I may need to get out of Burlington for some indefinite amount of time. That being said, I hope to finish up The Burlington Project this fall/winter. There are currently four tracks (Coke Binge, Winter Sunset, Dead City, and It's Summertime), with one or two more to be added. There will also be lyrics that will remain unsung. I'm having a meeting with my advisor today to get some direction and focus because right now my mind is everywhere and needs to be centered. I need goals. As Arnold would say, "You lack discipline!" Speaking of which, we had a nice Kindergarten Cop party over the weekend. Oh, I guess I had a fun weekend! I went hiking too and will post some pictures sometimes soon. And everyone should download some Goldfinger. They rocked it back in the day.