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I feel dead inside...so lonely, i feel so empty?...
the beat of my heart echoes throughout my body as though it were hollow,
sinking in to the impression of the chair as my body hangs and slumps off it,
there need be no bones or muscles to hold me up
as i have not the strength to use them,
slumber aproaches, and yet it becomes my salvation,
that i should wonder off into the bleak unknown,
a mind so small, yet a world so vast,
A place where my happiness is always fullfilled....
only to awaken the next morning....
as if dying in your sleep,
as the world you wake in becomes the hell u've been sent to..
im too tired to cope
too tired to fight,
the darkness within me carries me forth,
the shadow that followed me lingers and stares
watchin with interest, unable to help..
as i grow too tired to hold back the knife...
I need to release, to free my thoughts,
to free my mind, it hurts too much, i want to rip out my mind
so much going on, yet all too fast and all too much
it never makes sense...bumbling over words, yet
several different conversations try to leave my lips at once...
I am at war...with my self...a battle i dont know how to win...
but for now...im losing, and the pain wins once more...
for i have cut...so i can withdraw once more...
till tomorrow i sleep...and awaken again...
to begin this hell, once more in vain,
but for how much longer? i cant stand the pain....
im ok peeps...just a very bad day...i've been having too many lately....far too many...its hard to concentrate and focus on one thing...its why you haven't seen much of me lately........but i want to try and get back in to this at least....and keep something going....
so come on then....who of you have missed me?? :P xxxxxx
the beat of my heart echoes throughout my body as though it were hollow,
sinking in to the impression of the chair as my body hangs and slumps off it,
there need be no bones or muscles to hold me up
as i have not the strength to use them,
slumber aproaches, and yet it becomes my salvation,
that i should wonder off into the bleak unknown,
a mind so small, yet a world so vast,
A place where my happiness is always fullfilled....
only to awaken the next morning....
as if dying in your sleep,
as the world you wake in becomes the hell u've been sent to..
im too tired to cope
too tired to fight,
the darkness within me carries me forth,
the shadow that followed me lingers and stares
watchin with interest, unable to help..
as i grow too tired to hold back the knife...
I need to release, to free my thoughts,
to free my mind, it hurts too much, i want to rip out my mind
so much going on, yet all too fast and all too much
it never makes sense...bumbling over words, yet
several different conversations try to leave my lips at once...
I am at war...with my self...a battle i dont know how to win...
but for now...im losing, and the pain wins once more...
for i have cut...so i can withdraw once more...
till tomorrow i sleep...and awaken again...
to begin this hell, once more in vain,
but for how much longer? i cant stand the pain....
im ok peeps...just a very bad day...i've been having too many lately....far too many...its hard to concentrate and focus on one thing...its why you haven't seen much of me lately........but i want to try and get back in to this at least....and keep something going....
so come on then....who of you have missed me?? :P xxxxxx