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[thedk]

great...im getting pissed =] ...tonight i'm contemplating ending it all and the one person that knows...you know what? they dont even give a fuck...nice aint it. this being the one person i thought i was close to and regarded as a loving friend, some one that said they cared so much and would always be there for me....well where has she been this

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You'd be surprised at how much more attracted to you people would be if you were to be a little tougher. Alot tougher, actually. It's not something you have or don't; it's a conscious decision. Everything will fall into place after that. People will be more drawn to you. You'll start to do things that fascinate you. All this wallowing in self pity is like eating dog shit and complaining about the bad taste in your mouth.

You have to understand that I don't know you to be able to ascertain whether or not you are going to end up ending your own life or not. If you do, that sucks...and shame on you. I'll see you in eighteen years, when your reincarnate self is dealing with an even more difficult life. You've been dealt this hand for one reason...to learn to cope. So cope. This isn't the last day that's going to suck, but dude, peoples' days suck. If your friends aren't there for you, go find some new ones.

If you're not on the verge of offing yourself, you need to realise how much more notice you'll get by turning your depression into something more constructive. Stop the fucking drinking, for one. Apparently, it's not fixing things up very well. Stop depending on someone's phone call to convince yourself that there is something to make it worth waking up in the morning. I'm telling you now that there is. I am always right, so it's settled.

You don't seem to approve of someone acting childish. You mention it with distaste in your words above. Well, remember when you were a child, being mad at your parents? At least a dozen times, because we all did it, you thought "I hope I die...then they'll be sorry". That's kid shit. What you are doing is kid shit. Whenever you DO die, you want to die a man. Right now, you're being a little boy. Peoples' disrespect for you will be your legacy if you go out the way you are suggesting.

Get off this kick, man. It's pathetic and short-sighted. It's also more the cause of your problems than the result. Clearly, you have the intellectual capacity tosee what I am saying.

[doublevodka]

That is basically exactly what I was trying to say. But with far less class and without making as much sense. Damn you, Wyatt.

[thedk]

*shrugs* i didnt like it lol...i prefered your version much better lol....this just got me wired lol

[doublevodka]

He's right, though.

[thedk]

i have the intellectual capacity!?! lmao...yeah ok. I see more of life, the world, the reason for us being here than anyone....we live, we grow old, and we die...thats all there is to it....we work hard, but what for? to die....we get a family...but what for? to die....we slog our guts out trying so hard to get the things and happiness we want in life...but what for...to die? so whats the point? ...and I dont have any of those things...and never have...when i've got close to them things it turns out to be just someone teasing me, jokingly throwning the things i want most infront of me and then laughing as they drag it away....all i am is alive...no matter what i do with this life it brings nothing but bad...for me and other people....i'd save everybody and me, a lot of suffering...just to end it now. tis not a childish act..maybe a selfish act? but also a selfless act for sparing the pain of others....they wont hurt so much when im gone...i'm just a burden...waiting to die...why wait when i can do it now

[doublevodka]

If you think that all you're living for is death, you have the complete wrong outlook on life.

Yes, every day is one day closer to the day you die. A depressing fact, but you can look at this in one of two ways:

1) "Well, if I'm going to die sometime it might as well be now, what's the point in carrying on?"

or:

2) "Shit, I may not have much time left to do all the things I could be doing."

The second is definitely the better of the two, as if that wasn't obvious enough.

You have absolutely no idea what sort of things you could be doing in the future. You could be sitting in your kitchen in a few years time, and accidentally discover the cure to cancer. Far-fetched maybe, but if you kill yourself tonight you'll never know.

"they wont hurt so much when im gone...i'm just a burden"

If that is actually true, then you do need to find new friends.

I'm stopping this now. It's getting too close to actual advice and I haven't got a fucking clue what I'm talking about.

[darknessofstars]

wow, i totally agree with you. sorry lee.

[thedk]

hey, everyones entitled to their opinion :)

...but what was described by him...its just not me...those are not my reasons...