Todays Ranting Session
...Kill me now and make it quick!!
...To be killed slowly?? I've already been dying for 25 years
...Do I need to suffer anymore?
I've made a mess of things, everything, my life. Everything i touch or get close to is ruined. Me, myself is becoming worse everyday. I hate myself, some days I can't even bring myself to look in the mirror...If i can't even look at myself, who else will look at me? Can I hide forever? till i fade from existance? will people eventually forget im there, that i existed, thats if they know i exist already. i'm just invisible to some people, and to others im just transparent, they'll only see me when they want to, and then they just want something. Everyone plays me for a fool, i'm a nice guy, and they take and use that to their advantage, and most dont give a fuck about my feelings. Do people understand when they give me their advice? they tell me i'll do good one day, i'll meet someone someday? life is not that bad...then tell me this? have you ever been loved? if you have then you dont know, those who haven't been loved will know, but if your young, theres still time. I hate being 25, it feels old, like i've wasted so much of my time, i try to move on but why, everything i do ends up with the same answer, back here, on my own, a failure.
i'm having a bad day...can't you tell? lol.
xx
...To be killed slowly?? I've already been dying for 25 years
...Do I need to suffer anymore?
I've made a mess of things, everything, my life. Everything i touch or get close to is ruined. Me, myself is becoming worse everyday. I hate myself, some days I can't even bring myself to look in the mirror...If i can't even look at myself, who else will look at me? Can I hide forever? till i fade from existance? will people eventually forget im there, that i existed, thats if they know i exist already. i'm just invisible to some people, and to others im just transparent, they'll only see me when they want to, and then they just want something. Everyone plays me for a fool, i'm a nice guy, and they take and use that to their advantage, and most dont give a fuck about my feelings. Do people understand when they give me their advice? they tell me i'll do good one day, i'll meet someone someday? life is not that bad...then tell me this? have you ever been loved? if you have then you dont know, those who haven't been loved will know, but if your young, theres still time. I hate being 25, it feels old, like i've wasted so much of my time, i try to move on but why, everything i do ends up with the same answer, back here, on my own, a failure.
i'm having a bad day...can't you tell? lol.
xx