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last night my brother and i played checkers. After everyone had gone to bed he said, "i'm sorry i'm not in your life more... or like, ever..."
and i started crying.
and i felt really stupid.
because it's fucking true. He's not in my life. We never talk on the phone, and when he's home he's out with the gf forever. I'd do the same thing, i suppose, but it's still sad. He used to be my best friend. All of my best friends just sort of disapeer.
We had a nice talk though. And he cried too. I still felt like the whole thing was a little XmelodramaX, but it had to happen. Now i don't resent him anymore. Because last night i wanted to chop his head off. He got home as we were doing the dinner dishes, from being at his girlfriend's for 2 days, and goes, "why don't you all come and eat with me?!" Then he was all, "em why don't we ever hang out?" when i've been in the house non-stop for the whole week, like i haven't gone ANYWHERE except with my mom, and he's out all the time. I was so pissed but i swallowed it.
But then last night it all came out.
So i guess it's good. I just wish life wasn't so awkward and confusing half the time.
also, i got razor burn in my armpit, and now it's all infected and itchy and sore. Fuck shaving. I quit.
al
and i started crying.
and i felt really stupid.
because it's fucking true. He's not in my life. We never talk on the phone, and when he's home he's out with the gf forever. I'd do the same thing, i suppose, but it's still sad. He used to be my best friend. All of my best friends just sort of disapeer.
We had a nice talk though. And he cried too. I still felt like the whole thing was a little XmelodramaX, but it had to happen. Now i don't resent him anymore. Because last night i wanted to chop his head off. He got home as we were doing the dinner dishes, from being at his girlfriend's for 2 days, and goes, "why don't you all come and eat with me?!" Then he was all, "em why don't we ever hang out?" when i've been in the house non-stop for the whole week, like i haven't gone ANYWHERE except with my mom, and he's out all the time. I was so pissed but i swallowed it.
But then last night it all came out.
So i guess it's good. I just wish life wasn't so awkward and confusing half the time.
also, i got razor burn in my armpit, and now it's all infected and itchy and sore. Fuck shaving. I quit.
al