Why "activist boys" have replaced "indie rock boys" as my new "type"
Last night Wes and I were going to see Oedipus Rex at cornell. I was sitting in the lobby eating a sandwich when Dan was like, "emily, you look nice for being on duty!"
and i said, "i don't have duty..."
But oh, yes i did.
I was so nervous Wes would be annoyed. But he just happily scurried into the tower and said, "that's cool, I'll just hang out with you here!"
It was awesome. We laughed a lot, Emily came over and told stories and then went to a party, and then we watched the full first season of "The Office" although I've watched it several times already... it seems to only get funnier the more I watch it. Wes really liked it too.
And it was just nice to lay on my bed next to someone and snuggle and know that they weren't going to get clingy nor aloof, and know that they were perfectly happy just hanging out, who didn't try to make it with me, get into my pants, or even make out. Just some quiet cheek kisses and tickling and warmth.
And it was nice when he left at 3 am saying, "do you want me to turn the light off?" giving me my blanket and then saying, "yeah we'll hang out again soon."
And knowing he wasn't going to ask to be my boyfriend, or tell me that there wasn't a future for us, that he was cool saying he didn't know Q and Not U, but has buttons on his belt loops that talk about dumpster diving and burning with passion for politics.
I like friends that are boys, that don't need to feel smarter than me or cooler than me, that don't need to posess me or push me away. People that are just people, individuals, letting their neediness and insecurity fall by the way side.
Last night felt very unlonely, and i liked it.
and i said, "i don't have duty..."
But oh, yes i did.
I was so nervous Wes would be annoyed. But he just happily scurried into the tower and said, "that's cool, I'll just hang out with you here!"
It was awesome. We laughed a lot, Emily came over and told stories and then went to a party, and then we watched the full first season of "The Office" although I've watched it several times already... it seems to only get funnier the more I watch it. Wes really liked it too.
And it was just nice to lay on my bed next to someone and snuggle and know that they weren't going to get clingy nor aloof, and know that they were perfectly happy just hanging out, who didn't try to make it with me, get into my pants, or even make out. Just some quiet cheek kisses and tickling and warmth.
And it was nice when he left at 3 am saying, "do you want me to turn the light off?" giving me my blanket and then saying, "yeah we'll hang out again soon."
And knowing he wasn't going to ask to be my boyfriend, or tell me that there wasn't a future for us, that he was cool saying he didn't know Q and Not U, but has buttons on his belt loops that talk about dumpster diving and burning with passion for politics.
I like friends that are boys, that don't need to feel smarter than me or cooler than me, that don't need to posess me or push me away. People that are just people, individuals, letting their neediness and insecurity fall by the way side.
Last night felt very unlonely, and i liked it.