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So basically...I got yelled at and ignored for a good 5 months last year because I didn't have my license and my parents were tired of picking me up all the time. "We want you to get your license then you can drive yourself!" So they put me through a speedy program to get my license and I've had it for a month now but guess what...I'm not allowed to drive anywhere alone. Only to dance on Thursdays...which is a whole two minutes away. "When you have your license-you'll be able to get in a car with your friends?" Am I allowed to do that? No. The only person I'm allowed to get in a car with is my friend Brittany. She takes me to school when she can (because we both live in fucking Egypt) but that's the only person I can ride with. Ooookay...if you yelled at me so much last year and couldn't wait for me to get my license...why can you wait now? If you can wait now you should've just put me through a regular looong ass drivers ed program.
I missed school today cause I felt like shit...but my Mom called me and was like "Go over to the Verde Grille cause they're hiring you and you need to fill out paperwork." (The Verde Grille is where my sister works...it's ALSO two minutes away. It's the golf course in my 'community'...I'm going to be a hostess in the restaurant there) So, I drove over there, filled out all the papers and my Dad calls me. He's like "Do you want to meet me and your Mom at Ray's Pizza?" I was like "As in...me driving alone to meet you?" He was like "Yeah, I persuaded your Mom to let you drive." So yayyyy I got to drive by myself...but does that mean I'll get to drive to school? Nope. It's so retarded. Then, I was driving home and my Dad was behind me...I was on a one lane road. I stopped at the stop light (once you pass it, it turns into a two lane road) So I drove straight across the intersection...it automatically takes you into the left lane. So I'm about to switch into the right lane and my Dad is like honking at me to get infront of him (in the right lane) so I do. We get home and he's like "When you're crossing that intersection go into the right lane." I'm like "Dad...there are people making a right to get into that right lane...if I cross the intersection and swerve into the right lane I could get hit." He's all "No you're wrong...if you drive like that I'm not letting you drive to school." I told my Mom about it and she's like "No...you're right...those people making a right won't stop for you...you need to keep in that left lane till you can get over."
The thing that pisses me off most is...I KNOW that I can't drive to go see my friends on weekends. I don't even ask to. But my parents will never take me to see my friends because I live far and they're 'too tired' to drive. Not only that, all my friends have their licenses and are ALLOWED to use them so I'm stuck at home. It's not fair. Apparently "having your license doesn't mean you can drive alone." Well okay then what does it mean.
Other than putting up with that shit...I'm great! Rehearsal for The Crucible sucks, though. I hate getting to see his favorites act while I do nothing. I'm just not one of his favorites...I never will be. I'm not one of those people that will go up to the director and be like "If you don't give me this part...I'm dropping out of your show." So I've decided to start doing community theatre. I'll show him that I AM good enough for his sucky ass highschool shows. I have talent and I'm the only one there that takes risks when it comes to my acting. My monologues are always parallel to the character I want to play...and really, I play characters that are tough...I like to take risks and challenge myself. He even said himself that's what he liked most about my acting. But seriously...I read the play, I picked a monologue that applied to my character, I had a great audition...what more can I do? I couldn't be there for callbacks cause of vacation, so I guess I understand why I got a shitty one line part. Although, if I was one of his favorites or if my parents donated alot of money to drama club and I didn't show up for callbacks...I'd still get a part. Fuck highschool politics...I'm going elsewhere...somewhere where my talent/experience can actually be USED.
I really do love acting. Sometimes I think it's all I can do...sometimes it's as if I'm a one dimensional person and it's the only thing I have. Yet at the same time I think about how much I love writing and how much I love people...if I can never be a "working actress..." I still want to be involved in the media somehow. I dunno...either way I just want some kind of profession that I love.
School is good...I guess. I need to get caught up on my photo stuff...I'm so behind-ugghh.
I missed school today cause I felt like shit...but my Mom called me and was like "Go over to the Verde Grille cause they're hiring you and you need to fill out paperwork." (The Verde Grille is where my sister works...it's ALSO two minutes away. It's the golf course in my 'community'...I'm going to be a hostess in the restaurant there) So, I drove over there, filled out all the papers and my Dad calls me. He's like "Do you want to meet me and your Mom at Ray's Pizza?" I was like "As in...me driving alone to meet you?" He was like "Yeah, I persuaded your Mom to let you drive." So yayyyy I got to drive by myself...but does that mean I'll get to drive to school? Nope. It's so retarded. Then, I was driving home and my Dad was behind me...I was on a one lane road. I stopped at the stop light (once you pass it, it turns into a two lane road) So I drove straight across the intersection...it automatically takes you into the left lane. So I'm about to switch into the right lane and my Dad is like honking at me to get infront of him (in the right lane) so I do. We get home and he's like "When you're crossing that intersection go into the right lane." I'm like "Dad...there are people making a right to get into that right lane...if I cross the intersection and swerve into the right lane I could get hit." He's all "No you're wrong...if you drive like that I'm not letting you drive to school." I told my Mom about it and she's like "No...you're right...those people making a right won't stop for you...you need to keep in that left lane till you can get over."
The thing that pisses me off most is...I KNOW that I can't drive to go see my friends on weekends. I don't even ask to. But my parents will never take me to see my friends because I live far and they're 'too tired' to drive. Not only that, all my friends have their licenses and are ALLOWED to use them so I'm stuck at home. It's not fair. Apparently "having your license doesn't mean you can drive alone." Well okay then what does it mean.
Other than putting up with that shit...I'm great! Rehearsal for The Crucible sucks, though. I hate getting to see his favorites act while I do nothing. I'm just not one of his favorites...I never will be. I'm not one of those people that will go up to the director and be like "If you don't give me this part...I'm dropping out of your show." So I've decided to start doing community theatre. I'll show him that I AM good enough for his sucky ass highschool shows. I have talent and I'm the only one there that takes risks when it comes to my acting. My monologues are always parallel to the character I want to play...and really, I play characters that are tough...I like to take risks and challenge myself. He even said himself that's what he liked most about my acting. But seriously...I read the play, I picked a monologue that applied to my character, I had a great audition...what more can I do? I couldn't be there for callbacks cause of vacation, so I guess I understand why I got a shitty one line part. Although, if I was one of his favorites or if my parents donated alot of money to drama club and I didn't show up for callbacks...I'd still get a part. Fuck highschool politics...I'm going elsewhere...somewhere where my talent/experience can actually be USED.
I really do love acting. Sometimes I think it's all I can do...sometimes it's as if I'm a one dimensional person and it's the only thing I have. Yet at the same time I think about how much I love writing and how much I love people...if I can never be a "working actress..." I still want to be involved in the media somehow. I dunno...either way I just want some kind of profession that I love.
School is good...I guess. I need to get caught up on my photo stuff...I'm so behind-ugghh.