dazed and confused..
yay so i read everyones enries from the last one i remeber...lots of bad stuff...
anyways, so i think i got all my grades up which is always good. i dont think i have one D but we'll just hafta see how that math report goes :crosses fingers:
so my birthday is this weekend and its typical that my life just spirals farther and farther down pfft some sweet 16 imma have. heres the story, and note that im taking this very lightly becuz im in a daze after crying and arguing and stuff. ok so lately ive been homeless. so ive been staying with a number of random ppl. well ive been having breakdowns from that what with not knowing where to ever go and constantly feeling like a big fat burden and having everything ive ever known gone, in storage, or split apart. so this has been ruining my family. becuz now my dads supposedly leaving us. i havnt talkedto my mom and when i do she yells and complains. theyre always at the bar even more than they did >which i thought was impossible but life never ceases to amaze me< they are there from when it opens to about 11-1ish at night so they are completely undependable. well anyways so i spend the nigt at kims and b4 that i was at my g-mas visiting and shes worried about me and chels saying how all of this is unhealhy and we shud be doing is getting an education, flirting with boys and hanging with friends. so i leave go to school and come back to my g-mas again today untill someone from the bar can come pick me up. well i come in and shes like "were having u removed from ur home" so now me and chelsea >shes breaking it to mom tonight< are not even in my mom and dads custody anymore. wow lets see...i have no home, no friends, no mom, no dad, no stability, very few possesions,no car, no birthday,no boyfriend, no life, no futur considering im a fuck up in school,no money, no swim season, hell im just lucky if i can find somthing warm to wear. i swear the only thing keeping me from like going off the deep end is having chorus, i swear its the ONLY thing.if it werent for that i wud drop out becuz, lets just face it everyone hates me there, evryone hates me at home, and its not like im pulling it out of my ass, ppl say this all the time. like at school, i know who and when and what ppl say about me every day. u may not think i know that ur talking about me but someone always tells me one way or the other.i mean i know i have the ppl tha say "i really love u and my house is always open and im always here if u need me" but they arnt for real like they wud never take the time to pay attention to me so...no real friends still. mom doesnt talk to me and when she does it starts with "hey bitch..." dads already told me his hate for me. chels well we just dont talk unless were fighting so that ends bad. im at my wits end.
anyways, so im at kims and i guess she called both shane and anna for her book because she has a report due and still no ones givin me that or MY lement of the lamb #5 and she told her mom and her mom called her dad who said if they dont give it back soon hes gonna get a summons >their whole family is in law< so note to whoever has it, i need it back so u dont get in trouble. cuz iono if hes mocking or not cuz ive seen him sue for stupider so just get it to me soon PLEASE.
well im gonna go becuz my mom and dad aretrying to have my grandparents reconsider bt they are saying "ur not in a fit enviorntment so imma leave somewhere.
~klee...
anyways, so i think i got all my grades up which is always good. i dont think i have one D but we'll just hafta see how that math report goes :crosses fingers:
so my birthday is this weekend and its typical that my life just spirals farther and farther down pfft some sweet 16 imma have. heres the story, and note that im taking this very lightly becuz im in a daze after crying and arguing and stuff. ok so lately ive been homeless. so ive been staying with a number of random ppl. well ive been having breakdowns from that what with not knowing where to ever go and constantly feeling like a big fat burden and having everything ive ever known gone, in storage, or split apart. so this has been ruining my family. becuz now my dads supposedly leaving us. i havnt talkedto my mom and when i do she yells and complains. theyre always at the bar even more than they did >which i thought was impossible but life never ceases to amaze me< they are there from when it opens to about 11-1ish at night so they are completely undependable. well anyways so i spend the nigt at kims and b4 that i was at my g-mas visiting and shes worried about me and chels saying how all of this is unhealhy and we shud be doing is getting an education, flirting with boys and hanging with friends. so i leave go to school and come back to my g-mas again today untill someone from the bar can come pick me up. well i come in and shes like "were having u removed from ur home" so now me and chelsea >shes breaking it to mom tonight< are not even in my mom and dads custody anymore. wow lets see...i have no home, no friends, no mom, no dad, no stability, very few possesions,no car, no birthday,no boyfriend, no life, no futur considering im a fuck up in school,no money, no swim season, hell im just lucky if i can find somthing warm to wear. i swear the only thing keeping me from like going off the deep end is having chorus, i swear its the ONLY thing.if it werent for that i wud drop out becuz, lets just face it everyone hates me there, evryone hates me at home, and its not like im pulling it out of my ass, ppl say this all the time. like at school, i know who and when and what ppl say about me every day. u may not think i know that ur talking about me but someone always tells me one way or the other.i mean i know i have the ppl tha say "i really love u and my house is always open and im always here if u need me" but they arnt for real like they wud never take the time to pay attention to me so...no real friends still. mom doesnt talk to me and when she does it starts with "hey bitch..." dads already told me his hate for me. chels well we just dont talk unless were fighting so that ends bad. im at my wits end.
anyways, so im at kims and i guess she called both shane and anna for her book because she has a report due and still no ones givin me that or MY lement of the lamb #5 and she told her mom and her mom called her dad who said if they dont give it back soon hes gonna get a summons >their whole family is in law< so note to whoever has it, i need it back so u dont get in trouble. cuz iono if hes mocking or not cuz ive seen him sue for stupider so just get it to me soon PLEASE.
well im gonna go becuz my mom and dad aretrying to have my grandparents reconsider bt they are saying "ur not in a fit enviorntment so imma leave somewhere.
~klee...