Aug 16, 2005 00:01
I havent updated in the longest time...a lot of things have happenened that will forever change me, some good, some bad. I went on a summer trip to isreal which was great but when i came back something horrible was waiting for me, Ana the precious 7 year old had died. How could someone who was so innocent and so young be taken away from us, even though i had known she had a brain tumor since it first started 3 months ago on her birthday i had been in complete denial. While visiting her and comforting her i pretended she was the same old Ana just a little sick, i chose to ignore her complete change in physical and mental state, but today while sitting at her funeral it occured to me, i will never see her again. Not on birthdays or at her summer house, never again will i have the gift of her presence. The day before had been even worse, her family had asked me to do a painting on her coffin and i could barely move my hand for a simple stroke of paint because i was almost crippled with tremors. But as i sat there paintbrush in hand there was almost a feeling of understanding as her mother said today during her speech there IS a reason for things like this to happen and even though i believe that there still wont ever be anymore Ana.
Born:March 31, 1998
Died:August 12, 2005
A poem for Ana
God looked around his garden and he found an empty place. He then looked down upon his Earth and saw your tired face. He put his arms around you and lifted you to rest. Gods garden must be beautiful, He always takes the best. He knew that you were suffering, He knew you were in pain, He knew that you would never get well on earth again. He saw that the road was getting rough, and the hills are hard to climb. So he closed your weary eyelids, and whispered: " Peace be thine." It broke our hearts to lose you, but you didnt go alone. For part of us went with you the day God called you home.