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Its been so long. Everything has changed. I am working two jobs, with barely anytime off which means I am tired all the time, falling asleep straight after work everyday. The benefit is I am saving up all this money, because I have no energy to go out to spend any of it. I wish I had more time off so I could go visit Julia, Linds, Anne, Becky etc. Right now, my boss ( a hopeless romantic) is giving me tuesday and wednesday off so I can go up to Burlington to visit my boyfriend. He is leaving on August 11th (kerry sheds a tear) It is all very unlucky. I wish I had met him a long time ago. He is a sweetheart and perfect for me in everyway. He makes me do things I wouldnt normally do, like go sailing, climb rocks etc. He also reads kids books to me :) and cooks for me. Just what I like in a man. BUT he is leaving for college in Florida soon :( I mean I can visit him down there and am going to in September. But I need to go on with my life, and he is stuck in florida for 4 years. I just dont want to get heartbroken. I have seen girls in college, they are gonna try to get him and I dont know if I want to wait to get hurt. I know he wouldnt intentionally hurt me. But it is unrealistic to think we can survive the distance, especially considering im going to the UK for 6 months.
Right now I am just letting things in my life happen. I dont know what I want, who I want and where I want to be. I just am coasting, working like a slave, living for the days when I can read moomintroll with Shea or fall asleep with him in his loft. I do need someone to be happy and Im going to be very lonely when he goes. :( :(
I MISS MY GIRLS FROM COLLEGE so badly. I wish I could just leave vermont for a week and just go kidnap them all and have a reunion that involves lots of alcohol and fun. Because this life of work and no play is really getting to me.
Right now I am just letting things in my life happen. I dont know what I want, who I want and where I want to be. I just am coasting, working like a slave, living for the days when I can read moomintroll with Shea or fall asleep with him in his loft. I do need someone to be happy and Im going to be very lonely when he goes. :( :(
I MISS MY GIRLS FROM COLLEGE so badly. I wish I could just leave vermont for a week and just go kidnap them all and have a reunion that involves lots of alcohol and fun. Because this life of work and no play is really getting to me.