Summer.....not all its cracked up to be
so summer hasn't been the greatest, coming home from school is weird in a way. everyone always tells you that you grow apart from your high school friends and that after a year or two you will never talk to most of them again. and I really didn't think this was true until about a week ago. idk what clicked or what happened, but i just feel like i don't belong here anymore. I miss my school friends, i miss the freedom, and i miss my girlfriend. She comes in on friday, but knowing that she is across the country over the last 2 months i've only seen her for 4 days. I miss her so much, and there is no point in time when we are gonna be in the same place together for more than 2 weeks over the next 4 years, and it really makes me think that its not going to work out. I'm supposed to be able to have a girlfriend and waste my entire college years just being with her, but that doesn't happen beecasue we got to different schools and live across the country from each other. this is exactly what i said i didn't want when i left last year, but here I am again right back in the same old game. Idk what to do at this point, she comes this friday and is staying here for the weekend and I am really gonna enjoy the weekend, but its just a matter of not seeing her once I leave for school. and As much as i know i'm not gonna see her, I want to leave for school so bad right now like reidculous amounts. I just can't be here anymore. I need my real friends back.