Mar 21, 2005 06:09
So I took a 2-3 hour nap from somewhere around 10:00 to about 1:00. Woke up to read a novel, "Brave New World", because I have to write an essay on it today for my midterm. I read about half of it, and I had plenty of basis ammunition for a thesis, so I wanted to get back to sleep. It was about 4:00. I take some cough suppressant and lay down. 6:00 rolls around, and I'm still hacking up a lung, so I'm giving up. Came to an interesting revelation while reading, though.
Let me detail the story real quick for you, up to where I read. It's a futuristic society. Babies are produced and raised in an assembly-line fashion. There's no mothers, fathers, or families. Everyone is conditioned to be happy with their roles in society, and if they have a bad day, they can pop some Soma (druggage) and make their pains go away. People are conditioned to indulge in the 'now'. Dates are nightly things, where a couple will spend some time together, and then generally fuck the night away. Skipping between mates and dates is normal, and since there's no families, emotional attachments to dates are unheard of.
There's this guy, Bernard Marx. He's weaker and shorter than everyone in his social group, so he doesn't often get dates. The person he finally gets the cajones to ask on a date is Lenina, arguably the most beautiful, popular woman there. Well, she says yes, and while they go on their prolonged date, Bernard starts thinking outside the box. He believes that their conditioned lifestyle is an empty happiness, and he'd like to feel an emotional attachment with Lenina. Lenina's pretty hardwired into the widely-accepted belief system, but one thing Bernard says makes an impact on her... the phrase '...to try the effect of arresting my impulses'. Basically, he's saying that the more you desire something without having it, the more glorious that something is when you finally get it.
There's a lot of truth to that statement. After waiting patiently almost seven years, and resisting every impulse to respect only my desires... I finally have Kristina. And I believe that no man knows a greater joy than the one I am feeling right now.
I love you, Kristina. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
-D-Bo-