The Effect I Have on People
Well here is an interesting thought for you... in my life I have considered three women to be girlfriends and today it finally hit me about the effects I have had on their lives. The first girlfriend I ever had has since realized that she is a lesbian, although my view on homosexuality are a bit conservative I know the kind of person she is and can support her life choice. My second girlfriend is currently in a relationship with a man she will most likely marry, a situation she is in because of a terrible choice that I made. My most recent girlfriend was married this month to the man she dated prior to me.
So there you have it, two happy relationships and one life changing choice. All of these girls I hurt in some fashion and all seem better off because of the person I am, makes you think doesn't it. During this period i was in other relationships, but neither were formal although one was very serious and has resulted in more changes and emotional up and downs than I care to think about. That leaves me where I am. All this time I have defended in my mind the kind of person I am and the kind of person I was and I realize now that person back in High School that hurt those people never really went away and a part of me still acts out every once in a while. I thought I was better, but it appears now that I am not at least not all the way. I am not looking for pitty or for someone to tell me that I am wrong what I want is in some way to let those that I have wronged by being the person that I am that I can only begin to think about the long lasting effects that will have. I am sorry plain and simple no more no less, no words can excuse the wrongs I committed towards these women or towards others involving them the only thing I can do is work harder towards being a better person towards being the person that those that know me know and love.
So Melissa, Allyssa, Son and the other people I have wronged I know there is nothing more I can do to better your lives personally I just hope the fact that I am working hard ever day to better the world around you can begin to make up for it.
So there you have it, two happy relationships and one life changing choice. All of these girls I hurt in some fashion and all seem better off because of the person I am, makes you think doesn't it. During this period i was in other relationships, but neither were formal although one was very serious and has resulted in more changes and emotional up and downs than I care to think about. That leaves me where I am. All this time I have defended in my mind the kind of person I am and the kind of person I was and I realize now that person back in High School that hurt those people never really went away and a part of me still acts out every once in a while. I thought I was better, but it appears now that I am not at least not all the way. I am not looking for pitty or for someone to tell me that I am wrong what I want is in some way to let those that I have wronged by being the person that I am that I can only begin to think about the long lasting effects that will have. I am sorry plain and simple no more no less, no words can excuse the wrongs I committed towards these women or towards others involving them the only thing I can do is work harder towards being a better person towards being the person that those that know me know and love.
So Melissa, Allyssa, Son and the other people I have wronged I know there is nothing more I can do to better your lives personally I just hope the fact that I am working hard ever day to better the world around you can begin to make up for it.