Time To Set the Record Strait
Over the past two months or so I have been told by several people that I seem to be acting differently. The fact is that they are right I am acting differently, the funny thing is I am acting the way those same people have told me I should act. For years I have done everything I can in life for people and have done everything possible to save the world and save those that need my help. All along this path all I ever heard from people was "stop wearing your heart on your sleve", "stop caring so much", "stop trying to help everyone". The fact is that for all these years the same people I have helped have turned around and told me I should not be helping, it is not that they don't like my help or don't want it just that they say I shouldn't give it to people. Well about two months ago I had a lot of stuff happen to me at the same time.
I had some family issues and I had some personal problems, I was accused of being a father and assumed by others that I would help. The fact is that about two months ago I finally realized that these same people I have spent so many years helping just did not care. I began to learn that some of my "friends" had no use for me if I was not helping them and others got so used to me helping them that they assumed I would and blamed me when I would not. The same people that for years told me not to help were now turning around and faulting me on a moral level for not helping. I began to see how few people out there actually cared. I thought back to those who could drop their friendship with me on a dime because someone told them to, or drop their friendship with me on a dime because I was acting the way they said I should act.
The fact is I am tired. I am tired of being stepped on by those I am helping and pushed aside by those I am not. I am angry that there are those out there willing to give me up as a friend because I am different and I am even more angry at those that can't tell me that to my face. I am tired of those who tell me over and over again not to help only to get mad at me for not helping. I am tired and can't do this anymore. I spent years saving the world and can count the number of genuine "thank you's" on one hand. I am different and the reason is because the world does not seem to want me as who I want to be, so they are going to get me as who I am.
To those who have stuck with me through this I thank you and you know who you are, for those who have not you can kiss my ass...
Fact From the "Dan Book of Useless Knowledge" - There is no one that was mentioned in the post that will not know who they are or where they fit in.
I had some family issues and I had some personal problems, I was accused of being a father and assumed by others that I would help. The fact is that about two months ago I finally realized that these same people I have spent so many years helping just did not care. I began to learn that some of my "friends" had no use for me if I was not helping them and others got so used to me helping them that they assumed I would and blamed me when I would not. The same people that for years told me not to help were now turning around and faulting me on a moral level for not helping. I began to see how few people out there actually cared. I thought back to those who could drop their friendship with me on a dime because someone told them to, or drop their friendship with me on a dime because I was acting the way they said I should act.
The fact is I am tired. I am tired of being stepped on by those I am helping and pushed aside by those I am not. I am angry that there are those out there willing to give me up as a friend because I am different and I am even more angry at those that can't tell me that to my face. I am tired of those who tell me over and over again not to help only to get mad at me for not helping. I am tired and can't do this anymore. I spent years saving the world and can count the number of genuine "thank you's" on one hand. I am different and the reason is because the world does not seem to want me as who I want to be, so they are going to get me as who I am.
To those who have stuck with me through this I thank you and you know who you are, for those who have not you can kiss my ass...
Fact From the "Dan Book of Useless Knowledge" - There is no one that was mentioned in the post that will not know who they are or where they fit in.