Counseling
So, I had my first counseling session tonight.
Basically she doesn't think I really need it. She told me I have a good support group and that everything I feel is typical for anyone going through a major breakup and that I have it under control. Well fuck. Not that I was hoping to be all effed up, but if this is normal then I seriously don't know how or why anyone would ever chose to do this repeatedly! I guess she thinks I will need a max of 4 sessions. Okay. Can I remind you that I had a three day long panic attack?
She said to me that "although you have separated physically, it is pretty clear that you two have not yet separated emotionally"
I agree. All she had to say is "and that takes time"
ugh. I think 7 months should be enough time, no?
anyway...I have been reading this book by Dr. Gabor Mate called "When the Body says No". It is about the hidden costs of stress and repression of emotion and how it can lead to all sorts of illness. I liked this:
If a refusal saddles you with guilt, while consent leaves resentment in its wake, opt for the guilt. Resentment is soul suicide.
brew on that one for a minute.
Basically she doesn't think I really need it. She told me I have a good support group and that everything I feel is typical for anyone going through a major breakup and that I have it under control. Well fuck. Not that I was hoping to be all effed up, but if this is normal then I seriously don't know how or why anyone would ever chose to do this repeatedly! I guess she thinks I will need a max of 4 sessions. Okay. Can I remind you that I had a three day long panic attack?
She said to me that "although you have separated physically, it is pretty clear that you two have not yet separated emotionally"
I agree. All she had to say is "and that takes time"
ugh. I think 7 months should be enough time, no?
anyway...I have been reading this book by Dr. Gabor Mate called "When the Body says No". It is about the hidden costs of stress and repression of emotion and how it can lead to all sorts of illness. I liked this:
If a refusal saddles you with guilt, while consent leaves resentment in its wake, opt for the guilt. Resentment is soul suicide.
brew on that one for a minute.