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I've had time to sleep (lay in bed and mope) on it, and I've concluded that this really isn't what I want, especially when he's leaving in about a week. It's just too hard. I was in like with him for almost seven years or so, and every time we got close, I was the one to get hurt. Excuse me if I'm wary.
At 2 in the mornind, he sounds a lot like a really cheesy romance novel, and I don't know if that's cute, or just sad. It was late, and I was doing my best to be the level-headed one, because every convesation needs one, and it seems so damned hard to be rational. It's too cold to think of it now.
Hell, it's not like he's the only one I have to think about here. I wish it was that simple. I already have a triangle to contend with, without worrying about someone who's not even in my country. I feel nautious from all of this. I'm not the girl people see like this! why why why why now? I think I'm going to be sick...
At 2 in the mornind, he sounds a lot like a really cheesy romance novel, and I don't know if that's cute, or just sad. It was late, and I was doing my best to be the level-headed one, because every convesation needs one, and it seems so damned hard to be rational. It's too cold to think of it now.
Hell, it's not like he's the only one I have to think about here. I wish it was that simple. I already have a triangle to contend with, without worrying about someone who's not even in my country. I feel nautious from all of this. I'm not the girl people see like this! why why why why now? I think I'm going to be sick...