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continual failure just gets to you after a while. you just try and try and try but you never succeed. people say try, try again. but i have. and im so tired of failing. im really really tired of hoping for something, and getting so close to it, and losing it. or thinking im close to getting something, only to find that i'm so very far away. its kind of taxing. i think im really going to do it this time, i think im really going to get to the top, and then i fall back down again. and i dont think i want to try anymore. because then i wont hurt anymore. if i dont try, i cant fail. and if i cant fail, i cant get disappointed. why have i never thought of this before?
on a different subject.
dear boys of the world,
i'm tired of being single.
if you could do something to change that,
it'd be wonderful.
thank you.
love,
Sarah.
haha des that wasn't too desperate was it? not as bad as the note i showed you.
oh and this excludes my e-husband. haha i love having an e-husband.
im so listless. and i dont feel like doing anything. at all. i feel like sleeping. and im starting to think i want to drop AP U.S. like i already can't take it. I KNOW i'm going to get a B, and i KNOW that it'll kill me. I know that i'll be sooo disappointed with a B, and i just cant handle that sort of disappointment anymore. i'll have worked so so hard only to end up with a B. thats just not fair to me. historys not my strongest suit. why am i doing this to myself? i really want to drop it. really really badly.
whatever. just whatever.
on a different subject.
dear boys of the world,
i'm tired of being single.
if you could do something to change that,
it'd be wonderful.
thank you.
love,
Sarah.
haha des that wasn't too desperate was it? not as bad as the note i showed you.
oh and this excludes my e-husband. haha i love having an e-husband.
im so listless. and i dont feel like doing anything. at all. i feel like sleeping. and im starting to think i want to drop AP U.S. like i already can't take it. I KNOW i'm going to get a B, and i KNOW that it'll kill me. I know that i'll be sooo disappointed with a B, and i just cant handle that sort of disappointment anymore. i'll have worked so so hard only to end up with a B. thats just not fair to me. historys not my strongest suit. why am i doing this to myself? i really want to drop it. really really badly.
whatever. just whatever.