cocaine
maybe ive finaly broken like i need to, so i can look at things like i need to and be realistic about everything.
im completely irrational most of the time when im depressed.
i suffer from depression.
what i never thought of until now is that maybe i hold things back too often, and wait for it to build up until it explodes and hurts people.
maybe im bi-polar.
bi-polar disorder killed the daughter of a friend of mine... well... technicaly she killed herself with a drug overdose... but thats because of the second side of her that didnt think.
i think i have THAT much control... but so far ive gone and hurt myself by hurting my friends.
im obsessive.
i keep thinking that i have to be devoted. im haveing a hard time letting go. i keep thinking im taken. i just need to settle down and not be freaking out everytime something wrong happens to me.
i overreact.
i wasnt ignored. i just always feel like i am. i just want attention like everyone else, but i go about the wrong way of wanting it, then it leads to me being depressed and feeling like im worthless.
i dont have high self esteem.
i stop by saying i have low self esteem, because im usualy ok with how things are with me. i accept them for what they are and just deal with them, unless i get like this.
im just a person.
im completely irrational most of the time when im depressed.
i suffer from depression.
what i never thought of until now is that maybe i hold things back too often, and wait for it to build up until it explodes and hurts people.
maybe im bi-polar.
bi-polar disorder killed the daughter of a friend of mine... well... technicaly she killed herself with a drug overdose... but thats because of the second side of her that didnt think.
i think i have THAT much control... but so far ive gone and hurt myself by hurting my friends.
im obsessive.
i keep thinking that i have to be devoted. im haveing a hard time letting go. i keep thinking im taken. i just need to settle down and not be freaking out everytime something wrong happens to me.
i overreact.
i wasnt ignored. i just always feel like i am. i just want attention like everyone else, but i go about the wrong way of wanting it, then it leads to me being depressed and feeling like im worthless.
i dont have high self esteem.
i stop by saying i have low self esteem, because im usualy ok with how things are with me. i accept them for what they are and just deal with them, unless i get like this.
im just a person.