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so this summer has gone by really fast.
i loved evert min of it . except waking up for work at 5 in the morning.i made tons of money and blew it on things i wanted at the time and i dont care. i never had a time to be at home. i did what i wanted and i loved it.i drank too much. partyd all the time and did things i prolly shouldnt have done. i got into things that are bad. and alot about me changed i think. i have different views on people in our "crew" that we thinks together still. i dont care anymore.. i really dont. but yet again i dont think anyone else does either. people would say things about everything my friends and i did and the way we were and it was a smack in the face. these people were my friends and it was reality. but we all still act like nothings wrong and thats what pisses me off.i gave people advice, had fights about stupid sittuatuons either me or someone else.they were all stupid. yes i made stupid choices and so do thers but when i look back... i was having fun at the time so whatever. i learned from every min of it. I DONT CARE anymore.. i swear senior year is gonna be so much fun and i have all of my friends telling me that .. im scared for the real world and i wish this year would last forever but i know it cant. im changing and so is everything around me . were not the same. my familys not the same .. NOTHINGS the same. and we gotta realize that even if it does smack you in the face. people moving away.friends turn their back.whatever all i gotta worry about is myself. i wanna be happy this year.. and gonna try to make that happen.
i loved evert min of it . except waking up for work at 5 in the morning.i made tons of money and blew it on things i wanted at the time and i dont care. i never had a time to be at home. i did what i wanted and i loved it.i drank too much. partyd all the time and did things i prolly shouldnt have done. i got into things that are bad. and alot about me changed i think. i have different views on people in our "crew" that we thinks together still. i dont care anymore.. i really dont. but yet again i dont think anyone else does either. people would say things about everything my friends and i did and the way we were and it was a smack in the face. these people were my friends and it was reality. but we all still act like nothings wrong and thats what pisses me off.i gave people advice, had fights about stupid sittuatuons either me or someone else.they were all stupid. yes i made stupid choices and so do thers but when i look back... i was having fun at the time so whatever. i learned from every min of it. I DONT CARE anymore.. i swear senior year is gonna be so much fun and i have all of my friends telling me that .. im scared for the real world and i wish this year would last forever but i know it cant. im changing and so is everything around me . were not the same. my familys not the same .. NOTHINGS the same. and we gotta realize that even if it does smack you in the face. people moving away.friends turn their back.whatever all i gotta worry about is myself. i wanna be happy this year.. and gonna try to make that happen.