where do i go from here?
what can i say ...
this year has changed my life so much.
every single detail had changed. just little things. some of these things i love , and some changed for the worse. everything happens for a reason and people come in your life for a reason. i can say im finally growing up. im learning everyday. i make stupid choices.. but i have to learn from them and dont make them again. i can say ive done wrong. so what.i cant wait to graduate. but im scared as hell to get out in the real world.everything that has been happening to me has been making me go crazy.. for a while ive been depressed and i really didnt know how to handle things. i build up my feelings. or hide them in. i love to talk to people, but i know sometimes people are sick of me talking about my "stupid" memories. but .. thats all i have and i dont know what else to do.. thats why i wanted to go to the doctor.. to talk to someone. i know i have my friends. atleast i think i do. i love talking about everything and i dont know if its helping me or not. im trying to move on... i didnt know it could be this hard.. ive never felt like this before. not knowing what to do... not knowing how to help myself. i feel like im striving for attention and its getting me knowhere... i need help. i want help. and i dont know where to get it.. everything is a rememberance. EVERYTHING. im just trying to go day by day.. thats all i can do .. im just trying to live my life.. its all i think about everyday .. sometimes i feel so stupid.. and i get so upset to see people come out of knowhere telling me that they were aarons friend.. and i know for a fact that they havent even hungout before.. NO. you didnt get to know him. NO. you didnt know anything so dont come up to me and ask me how iam when yhou dont know anything.. i hate that .. i dont care if that sounds stupid .. but he always would tell me how he never talked to allot of people and hoe he hated when people would judge others.. im taking that with me..
im moving on.
this year has changed my life so much.
every single detail had changed. just little things. some of these things i love , and some changed for the worse. everything happens for a reason and people come in your life for a reason. i can say im finally growing up. im learning everyday. i make stupid choices.. but i have to learn from them and dont make them again. i can say ive done wrong. so what.i cant wait to graduate. but im scared as hell to get out in the real world.everything that has been happening to me has been making me go crazy.. for a while ive been depressed and i really didnt know how to handle things. i build up my feelings. or hide them in. i love to talk to people, but i know sometimes people are sick of me talking about my "stupid" memories. but .. thats all i have and i dont know what else to do.. thats why i wanted to go to the doctor.. to talk to someone. i know i have my friends. atleast i think i do. i love talking about everything and i dont know if its helping me or not. im trying to move on... i didnt know it could be this hard.. ive never felt like this before. not knowing what to do... not knowing how to help myself. i feel like im striving for attention and its getting me knowhere... i need help. i want help. and i dont know where to get it.. everything is a rememberance. EVERYTHING. im just trying to go day by day.. thats all i can do .. im just trying to live my life.. its all i think about everyday .. sometimes i feel so stupid.. and i get so upset to see people come out of knowhere telling me that they were aarons friend.. and i know for a fact that they havent even hungout before.. NO. you didnt get to know him. NO. you didnt know anything so dont come up to me and ask me how iam when yhou dont know anything.. i hate that .. i dont care if that sounds stupid .. but he always would tell me how he never talked to allot of people and hoe he hated when people would judge others.. im taking that with me..
im moving on.