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Hey I'm sorry guys but i need to talk to someone and no one is online. im just having a breakdown. i miss kyle...i miss Ray....i miss that feeling that i have a guy that i want to spend teh rest of my life with. I hate that there is nothign i can do about it. i want a guy i can count on...is that too much to ask? i hate that every time i see rays face, or someone says somethign about kyle...all my feelins for them come rushing back...i gave up everythign for both of them...and they both threw it away, threw it back in my face. all i wanted was to make them happy. all i want is to make everyone happy. they all throw it in my face. i want someone to come and hold me iin there arms and tell me that it is allright...that everythign is gonna be ok, that they are there for me. why do i always have to do that? why am i the one who comforts adn assures...why cant i have that....i want that...