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It's coming. The darkness. I've had enough fucking darkness. I had 1,874 years of nothing but darkness. Rose is coming. Bad Wolf is coming. Is this what it's been keeping me for? What happens to me when it's all over? John is depressed as all fuck because the Master left him, and all I can think about is the Doctor.
I'm pregnant. I have a baby in me, but I can't sleep. I can't think about it. I can't think about any of this, because I have to be calm. I have to be Captain. Even though Jack would be a better choice.
I had to get it out somewhere, I can't tell anyone. I have to be strong. And getting it all out did help, I think. Even if it was just to an online journal.