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[thedarkring]

"I really need to step up."

Thats what I kept saying to myself, "I need to". no not "I need to".....I am going to.

I am going to stop sitting in my basement wasting my life on videos games.

I am going to stop procrastinating and study for my ACTs.

I am not going to just sit at Toarminas because it's easy and the people there are nice.

I am going to find a job that pays me the money I need to move out and go to school ON MY OWN

I am going to become more outgoing

I am going to be more confident

I am going to stop worrying about everything

I am going to make life goals

I am going to take control of my life

And im going to take control over my freaking love life
If it works or if it doesent...It won't matter because I was myself, and did nothing wrong.

Was worried that I didn't know what I wanted, but no one ever knows what they really want.
So why worry.

Didn't want to turn 18 because that meant I was in charge.
But I AM in charge and now it's time to step up.

"God works in mysterious ways, I asked for guidance...and he pointed to me."